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By , Donnellson, IA
My boyfriend's name is Cain. Today we fought.

Stumbled home blinded by salty water.
Exacto Blade clutched so tight.
Knuckles white.

Slit my left wrist from palm to elbow.
Switched hands.
Slit my right wrist from palm to elbow.

Watched the blood hesitate.
Watched the blood flow.

Sleep.

Woke up in hospital. Beep. Beep. Beep.
Open eyes.
Close eyes when they say my name.

Sleep.

Open eyes in ambulance. On my way.
Institution.
Psych Ward.
Crazy Farm.
Committed.

Mom says goodbye.
Looks at me expectantly, blinded by salty water.
All I utter:
"Please Bring Cain."

Days stack like a calendar, one after another.
Run together like watercolor.
Swish Swish Swish.
Only words that pass my lips, like scars on wrists.
"Please Bring Cain."

I spend my nights in terror.
Wake up screaming his name.

"CAIN CAIN CAIN"
"CAIN CAIN CAIN"

Clutch sheets tight.
Knuckles white.

My screams mingle with whimpers of other girls.
Only girls.

Mom visits.
"Please Bring Cain."

Finally they decide.
They can't handle me anymore.

I am home.

Dial his number, disconnected.
Dial my friend.

"Didn't you hear? Didn't you hear about Cain?"

On the day I slit my wrists from palm to elbow.
Cain tied a rope around his neck.

Stumble to the cemetery, blinded by salty water.
Look down, lay down.
Open my wrists just a bit deeper than before.

They couldn't bring me Cain.
So I give Cain me.



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lizzyd310This teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jun. 8, 2012 at 10:27 pm:
Very nice. I don't usually comment but this was particularly note worthy. The flow is beautiful. Reminds me of Poe's "The Raven" with the dialogue and repetition. Again, very nice!
 
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ustukushii said...
Oct. 28, 2011 at 12:08 am:
Wow.. that was amazing, I'm speachless.
 
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writergirl13 said...
Nov. 30, 2010 at 7:23 pm:
Oh my god. As I was reading this, I just felt my heart slow down with every line until it stopped altogether at the end. I'm still sitting here, jaw dropped to the floor. That was intense, but also pretty calm. 
 
BrainsANDBeauty This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Dec. 1, 2010 at 4:59 pm :
Thank you very much.  I know.  I had this, or parts of this, in a dream.  It just came to me.
 
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NicoleS This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Nov. 22, 2010 at 9:20 pm:

your poem is powerful, moving, and incredibly well written

 

beautiful job

 
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RockingMusic said...
Nov. 22, 2010 at 1:18 pm:
wow...........,made me want to cry. is this true?
 
BrainsANDBeauty This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Nov. 23, 2010 at 1:03 pm :
No, It's purely fiction.  No worries. 
 
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icedLips said...
Nov. 22, 2010 at 4:51 am:

This poem is nothing short of amazing.  Like KrystalT, I too have tears in my eyes. Superb poem, filled with emotion. The ending is so unexpected, so powerful.

Beautiful.

 
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ChyChy said...
Nov. 21, 2010 at 7:58 pm:
Beautiful. Love it.
 
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BrainsANDBeauty This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Nov. 21, 2010 at 1:38 pm:
Thank you.
 
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KrystalTThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. said...
Nov. 21, 2010 at 1:35 pm:
I'm speechless....Iactually have tears in my eyes. You are an amazing poet! ):
 
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kmarie14 said...
Nov. 21, 2010 at 2:01 am:
:( sad sad sad :( your an amazing poet keep writing
 
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hi_from_wonderlandThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. said...
Nov. 20, 2010 at 8:55 pm:
oh...my...gosh so sad :(
 
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-daydreamer- said...
Nov. 20, 2010 at 8:54 pm:
I love how you say "blinded by salty water". I think that's beautiful.
 
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scream.u.a.lullaby said...
Nov. 19, 2010 at 7:18 pm:
deep, sad, lovely...
 
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always&forever said...
Nov. 19, 2010 at 4:55 pm:
I love it .(:
 
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Sadface said...
Nov. 19, 2010 at 4:01 pm:
:( Sadface
 
BrainsANDBeauty This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Nov. 19, 2010 at 4:03 pm :
I'm sorry.....
 
mousey_teen replied...
Nov. 24, 2010 at 9:03 am :
You are a great writer and I am very glad to have you as a friend. Never stop writing Chica!
 
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