Cain Cain Cain

November 18, 2010
By Anonymous

My boyfriend's name is Cain. Today we fought.

Stumbled home blinded by salty water.
Exacto Blade clutched so tight.
Knuckles white.

Slit my left wrist from palm to elbow.
Switched hands.
Slit my right wrist from palm to elbow.

Watched the blood hesitate.
Watched the blood flow.

Sleep.

Woke up in hospital. Beep. Beep. Beep.
Open eyes.
Close eyes when they say my name.

Sleep.

Open eyes in ambulance. On my way.
Institution.
Psych Ward.
Crazy Farm.
Committed.

Mom says goodbye.
Looks at me expectantly, blinded by salty water.
All I utter:
"Please Bring Cain."

Days stack like a calendar, one after another.
Run together like watercolor.
Swish Swish Swish.
Only words that pass my lips, like scars on wrists.
"Please Bring Cain."

I spend my nights in terror.
Wake up screaming his name.

"CAIN CAIN CAIN"
"CAIN CAIN CAIN"

Clutch sheets tight.
Knuckles white.

My screams mingle with whimpers of other girls.
Only girls.

Mom visits.
"Please Bring Cain."

Finally they decide.
They can't handle me anymore.

I am home.

Dial his number, disconnected.
Dial my friend.

"Didn't you hear? Didn't you hear about Cain?"

On the day I slit my wrists from palm to elbow.
Cain tied a rope around his neck.

Stumble to the cemetery, blinded by salty water.
Look down, lay down.
Open my wrists just a bit deeper than before.

They couldn't bring me Cain.
So I give Cain me.



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on Jun. 8 2012 at 10:27 pm
edubois4 BRONZE, Port Neches, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
All great adventures require some risks.

Very nice. I don't usually comment but this was particularly note worthy. The flow is beautiful. Reminds me of Poe's "The Raven" with the dialogue and repetition. Again, very nice!

on Oct. 28 2011 at 12:08 am
ustukushii SILVER, Orem, Utah
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Favorite Quote:
"If you are a dreamer come in
If you are a dreamer
A wisher, A lier
A hop-er, A pay-er
A magic bean buy-er
If you are a pretender, come
And sit by my fire
For we have some fox-golden tales to spin
come in, come in" - Shel Silverson

Wow.. that was amazing, I'm speachless.

on Dec. 1 2010 at 4:59 pm
BrainsANDBeauty PLATINUM, Donnellson, Iowa
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Favorite Quote:
I knew that guy when he was a caterpillar, you know, before he 'came out'

Thank you very much.  I know.  I had this, or parts of this, in a dream.  It just came to me.

on Nov. 30 2010 at 7:23 pm
writergirl13 GOLD, Cherry Hill, New Jersey
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Favorite Quote:
All are lunatics, but he who can analyze his delusions is called a philosopher.
Ambrose Bierce

Oh my god. As I was reading this, I just felt my heart slow down with every line until it stopped altogether at the end. I'm still sitting here, jaw dropped to the floor. That was intense, but also pretty calm. 

on Nov. 24 2010 at 9:03 am
mousey_teen BRONZE, Donnellson, Iowa
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Favorite Quote:
You guys need to know that I consider myself a loner. Like a one man wolf pack.

You are a great writer and I am very glad to have you as a friend. Never stop writing Chica!

on Nov. 23 2010 at 1:03 pm
BrainsANDBeauty PLATINUM, Donnellson, Iowa
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Favorite Quote:
I knew that guy when he was a caterpillar, you know, before he 'came out'

No, It's purely fiction.  No worries. 

on Nov. 22 2010 at 9:20 pm
NicoleS PLATINUM, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
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Favorite Quote:
If someone thinks that love and peace is a cliche that must have been left behind in the Sixties, that's his problem. Love and peace are eternal.
- John Lennon

your poem is powerful, moving, and incredibly well written

 

beautiful job


on Nov. 22 2010 at 1:18 pm
Dunkelheitstieg BRONZE, Baldwin, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
"The poet ranks far below the painter in the representation of visible things, and far below the musician in that of invisible things. Why does the eye see a thing more clearly in dreams than the imagination when awake?,"Leonardo da Vinci.

wow...........,made me want to cry. is this true?

on Nov. 22 2010 at 4:51 am
icedLips BRONZE, Ponte Vedra Beach, Florida
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This poem is nothing short of amazing.  Like KrystalT, I too have tears in my eyes. Superb poem, filled with emotion. The ending is so unexpected, so powerful.

Beautiful.


Rayne GOLD said...
on Nov. 21 2010 at 7:58 pm
Rayne GOLD, Chippewa Falls, Wisconsin
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Beautiful. Love it.

on Nov. 21 2010 at 1:38 pm
BrainsANDBeauty PLATINUM, Donnellson, Iowa
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Favorite Quote:
I knew that guy when he was a caterpillar, you know, before he 'came out'

Thank you.

LunaLives GOLD said...
on Nov. 21 2010 at 1:35 pm
LunaLives GOLD, South Bend, Indiana
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Favorite Quote:
Because I can!-Me "Life is a choice and death is a decision"-Lil Wayne

I'm speechless....Iactually have tears in my eyes. You are an amazing poet! ):

on Nov. 21 2010 at 2:01 am
kmarie14 PLATINUM, Hyrum, Utah
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Favorite Quote:
"Life is either an adventure...or nothing" -Helen Keller

:( sad sad sad :( your an amazing poet keep writing

on Nov. 20 2010 at 8:55 pm
WinterFairy PLATINUM, Chicago, Illinois
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Favorite Quote:
"Don't dream it. Be it."
"Singing is praying twice, and dancing is singing with the body."
"Paper is more patient than man."
"Where you live shouldn't determine whether you live"

oh...my...gosh so sad :(

on Nov. 20 2010 at 8:54 pm
-daydreamer- SILVER, Smyrna, Tennessee
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Favorite Quote:
"Carpe.... Carpe diem. Seize the day, boys. Make your lives extraordinary." ---Robin Williams, "Dead Poets Society"

I love how you say "blinded by salty water". I think that's beautiful.

on Nov. 19 2010 at 7:18 pm
scream.u.a.lullaby BRONZE, Irving, Texas
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deep, sad, lovely...

on Nov. 19 2010 at 4:55 pm
I love it .(:

on Nov. 19 2010 at 4:03 pm
BrainsANDBeauty PLATINUM, Donnellson, Iowa
29 articles 3 photos 52 comments

Favorite Quote:
I knew that guy when he was a caterpillar, you know, before he 'came out'

I'm sorry.....

Sadface said...
on Nov. 19 2010 at 4:01 pm
:( Sadface


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