Many thoughts racing,
Many tears left my eyes,
Much to far away am I to do a thing
Fighting to stay sane and happy,
Struggling to say enough is enough.
Nothing is working at all.
Hundred of wasted words I used.
Thinking they mattered
Well, mistake number one.
Believing,
Mistake number two.
Staying,
Mistake number three.
Loving.
Non stop talking every day
Now theres nothing to say.
I loved you,
And I trusted you,
But most of all,
I believed you.
Hidden relationships don’t help you know?
Realizing the pain and the mistakes
All the wasted time put towards you,
Nothing ever mattered it seems.
All to do
Is sit and wait.
Flashback time.
I loved you,
You made me,
Hate me?
Say it please.
Shortly after,
He came to you
After a full five years
You leave me and went to him.
Goodbye was said to my ears.
Present time again please.
Thinking hurts me more.
I can’t help the pain you caused.
I can’t see my future.
Fighting forever,
Living my life or not.
Never hating before,
Countless lies have been said.
Hate list just grew and grew.
Never again will you mean something.
There will never be a time to be with you.
Come the future,
You will see every last mistake,
Every last way you messed up,
And pay for it you will.
Saying nothing was pretend?
I know realize the ostensible side of this.
Your dogged self couldn’t see.
Blinded by confusion.
Going back and forth.
Every time came back with pain.
Never learning a thing.
Still I was there all for you.
Means nothing now.
This is putting me through hell.
In the meantime,
You can’t be happier.
You said I was the sweetest,
Bulls*** I see that now.
How many times was that said to others.
So much for us.
So much for you.
What are you now?
A stubborn and confused girl.
All I do is think of every minute I wasted,
Every word I said,
Every time you smiled,
And every time you cried.
Now I understand.
I can’t trust anyone like you.
Its time to go.
Time will bring my life joy
And you will be gone for good.
Miles away from you
Although distance may be a few feet.
The only thing I ask of you,
Is to be happy and find someone like me.
I wish you the best of luck.
But for me
Tis goodbye for now.
Will you come to your senses soon?
I cant say for sure.
But when you do,
I will be gone,
Forever.
Holding another close and safe.
Where you could have been.
If all those lies weren’t said.
If only you were true.
One day I will be gone for good
All you will think is
How things could have been different.