Worth Something

day one volunteering
and already
I'm freaking out
I know that i have to do this
to prove to myself
that I can function
even with this disease
but I can already feel it creeping in
I'm tenser than normal
scared
too much pressure
but I get up anyways
and fight the war
I've been losing all along
and try to put on a smile
hoping that maybe
even if it's only a little
maybe even only to one person
my work can be worth something