So, today I fell in love with this boy's laugh & yesterday with "This Bitter Earth"--a song you know. But I had to choose. Between the two. A smile or pain? I am lemon & sugar. I am violins & gun shots. I am U. What good is love if it isn't shared or a laugh that you can't see or a song that you can't hear. What good am I if I am to die bitter.but sweet. Sweet, life--it feels sweet & love tastes so warmm. Heaven only knows. . .why I fight & hold on to a hand that I imagine that I can still feel. Fill unto my heart. Fill it up even though there are leaks. Fill it up enough so that I can fall into its love. and. be. free. to. be. me.