Are you going to cry today?

In this world there are
Many
Things that can go wrong

Remember them,
Because
They’re
The reason you’re
Alive

What would this life be if there was
No
Hope
Of something better to strive for,
No hope for more?

Rather than fall into
Despair,
I stand my ground and
Go
In the direction of
MY choosing,
Because I’m tired of being someone’s
Puppet
On
Strings

Even if I can
See the world from up here,
I’m
Not
A part of it

All
I
Am
Is a visitor suspended over it all,
Truly connected to something else

And in the end,
I am
Always
Withdrawn back up and away,
And placed in my box,
Where I am
Alone without
Sights
Or
Sounds
Or
Smells
Or
Anything

But I will cut the strings
With
My own opinions
And I will fall down to earth
And it will hurt,
But I won’t care because
Even pain is better than the dark numbness
Of
Being locked away in a box,
Even if it’s a pretty silk box tied
With
Ribbons
And
I fall face first into the mud

In fact,
I hope there will be mud,
Because that means it will be
Raining,
And I will lie
There
Listening to the raindrops telling each other
Stories as they fall,
Landing on me

All this time I’ve been
Asleep,
But with my body
Wracked
With pain
And
Fever,
And soaked by
Rain
And
Sweat,
I will never be asleep again!

I will take
All
That life has to offer me,
And anything I do
Not
Want
I will throw away,
Like the dry husk
Of
An already juiced orange

This is my life!

I refuse to continue walking into
Your
Hands,
The only path I’ll walk is the path of
Blood
From my cut feet,
Because I’ll refuse to run away from
My
Mistakes!

I will purposefully walk in the direction that
I
Have chosen,
Come what may.

All my life I’ve been
Dangling
Over infinity,
Desperately clinging onto the reality I’d been
Given

But
Now
I’ll release myself,
Not letting
Anything
Rule me,
And fall into my shadow,
For that alone knows who I
Really
Am and what I
Truly
Believe is real

The closer you are to the
Light
That draws you to fears like a
Moth
To
Flame,
The larger your own shadow becomes,
Running away from what it
Doesn’t
Want until it either
Tears away,
Lost to you
Forever,
Or you realize that it’s going where
You want to go
Too,
And in joy the two of you will run away to
Live,
Your shadow too happy at
Your
Presence to even care about how
Clumsy you are from a
Lack of life
Nourishing your soul

Take this time
And
Clutch it to you,
Never let it go!

Remember this feeling of freedom,
Lest you
Stagnate
And
Regress

Show me how to lie to
Myself
So I can believe that I’m
Not
Afraid
Of that which is unknown
By that which is

Would you mind if I
Flew away?

I hate to be a bother,
And I need to find
My
Way,
So I think it’s
For the best
If
I get up
And
Go away
For a while

It doesn’t matter if I leave,
I’ll come back to
You,
I promise

I’ll
Be better that way,
And
You’ll
Be better too

It doesn’t matter where I go,
As long as I got there
On my own

In my
Own
Way and time,
I
Promise
I’ll come back here again

But I’ll never go back into the box

Because…
Then,
This would
All
Have been
Meaningless.