Thanks

Thank you, for teaching me
Life's hardest lesson
When I was barely toilet-trained.

Thank you, for showing me
That to survive, truly,
I must kill myself-





Shut off every part


Of me that dares to


Feel.

Thank you, for challenging me
Testing me with
"Grown-up stuff" before I was five.

Thank you, for trusting me
With a secret so ugly
I can't stand myself-



Let alone try to let


Someone else love


Me.

Thank you, for forcing me
To every day look at
Myself, ruined and hopeless.

Thank you.

I appreciate that.