Perplexity and confusion
Drugs increasing my delusion
Eyes are heavy, images streaming
In a state of conscious dreaming
An open mind comes at expense
My brain unlocks, my muscles tense
In euphoria, numbness surpassed
My thoughts can wonder, free at last
I can escape life's gruesome pain
But cannot hide from my own shame
I found the truth, it was no other
No it was I who killed my brother
I've tried to hide this from myself
And it's caused damage to my health
But to accept it is even worse
To bear this burden, to carry this curse
I wish denial would still suffice
Self-realization, I've paid it's price