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I could tell you what I feel if I knew how that even felt…
I’m not sure if I’m alive, not sure if I would even feel the pain induced by a belt…
I might be numb from depression or just overwhelmed with emotional pain…
I have nothing left to loose, what could I possibly have to gain…
I want to keep my head on straight, and not get too carried away…
I struggle to complete even a task as simple as that throughout the day…
I cry before I sleep, I question what it would be like if come tomorrow morning I was dead…
I roll over onto my side, curl up into a ball underneath the sheets of my comfortable bed…
I try to convince myself life will get better, but my mind is constantly plagued with doubt…
I look for a way to stop myself from think harshly, so far, no way out…
I want to keep my mouth shut when I feel the rage come over me so strong…
I want to keep my mouth shut, but truth is, they got the story all wrong…
I end up yelling, screaming out all the anger I couldn’t contain…
I attempt to hold back tears, I attempt to not complain…
I shake my head, confusion flowing up and down my spine…
I feel myself spinning, this prohibits me from walking a straight line…
I wait to put myself together, I’m tired of being broken pieces…
I’m through with coming up with questions to ask, I’m not writing another thesis…
I find myself terrified, I want nothing to do with my past…
I’ve found I am a coward, I heard those don’t last…
I want to ask questions to get answers, I want them to get the facts straight…
I’m not looking for a hug, I’m looking for them to accept, understand, and appreciate…
I want them to hear the truth this time, want them to not judge what I say or do…
I want them to think this time what if I were YOU?




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GangstaEyes This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jun. 20, 2011 at 11:52 am:
This is OH-so powerful. The emotion in this is almost tangible, and I can relate so much, like I'm sure many other people can too. Great writing as usual :D
 
CarolynQ replied...
Jun. 20, 2011 at 9:54 pm :
Thanks again!!! :) Much appreciated!
 
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poodlesnoodle said...
Aug. 24, 2010 at 7:47 pm:
Amazing :)
 
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xlivelaughlove This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Aug. 17, 2010 at 12:20 pm:

Finally got around to reading this one! [:

I love how you seem to have a writing style that is all yours. In this poem especially, you seem to create questions and then answer them yourself, which I adore, because it's so different from most other authors. It requires imagination. [:

Keep it up, always, and let me know when you've got new stuff! :D

 
CarolynQ replied...
Aug. 18, 2010 at 12:02 am :
Thanks so much my passion is writing and i really put everything i have into it, so yes the style ismost definately mine and i like to keep it that way. i will def keep you posted and i enjoyed hearing from you so thankyou again ill keep myself posted on your work :)
 
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Han15 said...
Aug. 10, 2010 at 2:59 pm:
Wow! Its great how you've explained everything. Not seen anything that goes so deep recently so keep writing and i'll enjoy it all!
 
CarolynQ replied...
Aug. 18, 2010 at 12:00 am :
:) Im just happyy you think so i really appreciate it thankyou
 
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Boosflash This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jul. 18, 2010 at 6:59 pm:
okay,... the first, second, third, *fourth, 19, 20, 23 and 24 lines murdered the poem. by that i mean they made the poem and it was really good. everything else was pure awesomeness but i really loved those lines. i love the rhyming scheme aussi. do your dance with these five stars of mine.
 
CarolynQ replied...
Jul. 18, 2010 at 9:16 pm :
:) I'm happy they caught your attention.
 
Boosflash This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Jul. 26, 2010 at 2:12 pm :
sure thingage captain.
 
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MaKayla1513 said...
May 21, 2010 at 7:03 am:
Wow this is one of the most amazing pieces I've seen latley! You really now how to tug at the reader's heart! You get the reader to think about it..and I find that as one of the most interesting parts of writing. I too try to work that into my pieces. Keep up the great work!
 
CarolynQ replied...
May 22, 2010 at 4:36 pm :
im so happy you liked it! Thankyouuu
 
MaKayla1513 replied...
Jun. 3, 2010 at 9:48 am :
Hey I have 2 new pieces check it out when you have a min its called I should have and the other one is Save me
 
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Darley said...
May 2, 2010 at 3:48 pm:
I do really like this! You are a natural writer! I will Keep posted on your work. :)
 
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Freida said...
May 2, 2010 at 2:59 pm:
Wow, you are a splendid writer! All of your work is amazing and deep.
 
CarolynQ replied...
May 2, 2010 at 5:23 pm :
Thankyouu!! :)
 
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amicrazyorisitjusteveryoneelse said...
May 1, 2010 at 1:40 am:
i love it... it's so deep and you put so much of your soul into this poem
 
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