I Remember MAG

April 6, 2010
By IamtheWallpaper BRONZE, North Kingstown, Rhode Island
IamtheWallpaper BRONZE, North Kingstown, Rhode Island
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Favorite Quote:
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind."
"And the time came when the risk it took to stay closed in a bud became more painful than the risk it took to bloom."


There's nothing left to remember anymore.
I've replayed every moment 'til the tapes of my mind burned out, I've sucked the nuances dry. Nothing left to contemplate. Except …

The way your eyes dripped black with kerosene and rage. Brokeneness seeped from your pores, an essential part of you. Sorrow wedded itself to your every movement, a carefully practiced routine.
I remember the small notches of your spine, your wide nail beds. I remember your shallow ribcage and bleeding heart.
I used to memorize the contours of your face, knowing subconciously I'd need the memory someday, but now Someday has arrived and I don't know how to remember.
I want to forget every detail of you, but at the same time keep every moment forever. Put memory safe in a box. Not to open, just to keep on a shelf, for the time when I may forget what it was like to look into your eyes. The photo album you're too afraid to look in, afraid to see how you've changed, or how you've stayed static. Pandora's box. The only thing that would remain inside if I opened it is the hope I can never quite grasp again.
The words elude me. I don't want to write anymore, I don't want to think. I don't want to think about things that might lead to thinking about love, or you, or anything that happened before.
I'm tired of loving; there's too much risk. I love too much. I love … I don't know. But there must be some fatal flaw, because the end result always seems the same. Here I am, for the umpteenth time, pressed against the glass wall of reality. My heart on one side, my head on the other. Never the two shall meet.
But I remember, remember, remember …
still longing to forget.


The author's comments:
I'm not all too sure what this is, there's no clear connection to me. It's a random sort of blub, fueled by a lack of sleep and heartache. I hope you like it.

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on Nov. 3 2013 at 9:31 pm
DontxstopxImagining BRONZE, Janesville, Wisconsin
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Favorite Quote:
My thoughts are stars I can not fathom into constellations - John Green

Lovely <3

on Apr. 19 2011 at 11:51 pm
Victoria Bowman BRONZE, Phoenix, Arizona
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This is an amazing poem. :) congrats.

on Apr. 19 2011 at 7:24 am
Annabelle294 SILVER, Branford, Connecticut
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Your words are so powerful, and captivating, keep writing!

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on Apr. 19 2011 at 2:34 am
Malsie28, Placentia, California
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Favorite Quote:
"All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us"
-Lord of the Rings

great metaphors :D i love how you tied it cleanly together from the first stanza to the last with "remember" <--shows you were thinking in advance and aware of what you were writing :)

on Nov. 8 2010 at 10:11 am
jenicex DIAMOND, Passaic, New Jersey
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Favorite Quote:
"Stay beautiful. Keep it ugly." <3

I read this poem in the magazine - CONGRATS! (:

I just wanted to say that this poem is extremely amazing. I read it over and over, and I love it more every time.

You're an amazing writer. I hope to read more from you soon. (:


on Jun. 1 2010 at 8:50 pm
LihuaEmily SILVER, North Kingstown, Rhode Island
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Favorite Quote:
"It is said that there's no such thing as a free lunch. But the universe is the ultimate free lunch." -Alan Guth

Very solid beautiful imagery, even if the poem might have done with fewer words: it could have been more powerful if cut down to be concise. But I liked it.

on May. 3 2010 at 5:44 pm
IamtheWallpaper BRONZE, North Kingstown, Rhode Island
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Favorite Quote:
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind."
"And the time came when the risk it took to stay closed in a bud became more painful than the risk it took to bloom."

Thank you very much! :) I'm so glad you didn't get a headache hehe.

Metree SILVER said...
on May. 3 2010 at 4:08 pm
Metree SILVER, Machipongo, Virginia
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This is so good!! I feared it would give me a headache with its length but it easwas precisely it's length and modern feel that kept me reading until the end! Very well done!

on Apr. 30 2010 at 12:24 am
the.kanguru GOLD, Irvine, California
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Favorite Quote:
"Why is Jesus holding a machine gun?"
"Maybe it's part of his therapy."

surprising that this exploded out of you fueled on a headache. it's very intense "My heart on one side, my head on the other. never the two shall meet" ; "brokenness seeped from your pores, an essential part of you" are my favorite lines. It's almost like a lyrical narrative. Maybe you could expand this into a short story and/or novel. I enjoyed it.


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