I am outside
looking in the world that i used to live in.
With my wide eyes
staring at my friends
that used to be mine.
My mouth is dry
with words i can not verbalize.
I was mad at the world
I was like fire
destroyed everything in my path.
Now that I look back at my mistakes
those angry words i regret
those evil words replaced
with innocent words.
Those three words
I am itching to say
I am sorry.
but i am still an outsider
an outcast
an unloved person.
I look at my life that i messed up
big time.
I have built a forcefield
againest the world
againest life and love
againest friendship.
It was so tightly bonded
that i cant break through.
No matter what I try
i am locked out of the world.
I am outside
looking in the world i used to live in.
I am Outside.....