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The Fullness.

By , Dowiningtown, PA
"For in Christ lives all the fullness of the Diety, and you have been given fullness in Christ." Colossians 2:9 10

Well then why don't I feel this fullness??

I know it's here
But where?
Why don't I have a relationship with You?

I know why.
Because I...
Because I just...
Am so stupid. I try.
But I'm not giving it my full.

I try mentally.
But physically...
I have a problem.

I feel incapable of committing.
Why?
I want You so badly.
So freaking badly.

Every night
I pray for more
of You.

I have wished so hard,
My dreams even wish.

I have even considered taking
my life
just so I can be with You.

It seems like the only way.

Please.
I beg of you, night after night
But where are you?

I feel as though my prayers are e-mails,
sent months ago and still
waiting on a response.
I have no idea if you've gotten them.
I don't have a text-relationship
with you,
one where I feel like I'm physically having a conversation with you
I just feel like I'm leaving you a voice-mail, or writing you a letter
Unsure if you've received it
or if you've answered it.

All I have is myself to make that
call.

So self-
Figure out your problem.
Please.
And then you can feel the fullness.



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KevinM said...
Feb. 15, 2011 at 8:49 pm:
LOVE IT 
 
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Kairah J. said...
Apr. 17, 2010 at 2:57 pm:
AMAZING! I THINK YOU CAPTURED THE EMOTION OF ALL CHRISTIAN TEEN STUGGLING IN THEIR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD, I ABSOLUTLY LOVE IT. IT WAS EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED <3 
 
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