today i cry in my head wondering if i could try. see my heart beat in and out of my chest pleading if i can be the best. see them here and there wondering if i will ever care. boys be cool while girls drool over them except me i don't want to be the one who is always there breathing in their hair. seeing who is me and who i could become i will leave me be just the way i am and think damn will i ever get a man? a man of great figure who will always care and not dare cheat on me his only love whom loves white doves. today i feel all alone with no sent of his calogne. seeing you breathing you in it doesn't matter because you don't love me the way i love you, but all i care about is you in every way even when you say okay. your sent leaves me to carry on through the day.
January 10, 2010