I’m drowning in despair
Slowly, silently, destructively.
I welcome the pain,
It consumes me bit by bit.

Guilt overwhelming my mind,
Insanity creeps upon it too.
My self confidence cracked and
My spirit demolished with it.

Hating the world is natural now
But I still hate myself more
Scared I am the one I hated most
It’s just one massive internal war

I push down the demons,
Lock them deep in my head
They slowly attack my soul
Quietly destructing viciously

I want to give up fighting
This harsh, unforgiving world
But I hold on…
Feverishly grasping for control