the many years of crushIng,
turned into one night of cruShed feeling...

i felt tHe sense of losing my control,
nOt ready, i did as i was told, i knew my role...

the divided feelings of confUsion:
hurt, want, need; my certainty just a beautifuL illusion...

i wanteD to feel someone truly want me,
you knowingly cHarmed me out of my innocence and purity...

my heArt pounding, screaming wait,
my head not letting my mouth permit the worDs an escape...

i mildly moved your rushed handS away,
set on your goAl, you didn't obey...

after it all you pulled me tIght and close,
thinking of it now makes my heaD pulse...

questions swirl around me Now,
how could you so carelessly hurt
... hOw?