My eyes widen, my heart beats faster, I shout at the top of my lungs.
Their expression tenses and their response tells all.
I’m banging on the door to sanity, begging it to let me in.
Yet I’m still standing out here in the cold.
Voices grow louder, images grow ugly
Without thinking twice my ideas pour from my inner-self.
Mean, nasty, ignorant; they don’t stop.
Hurtful they are, deceitful they are not.
The truth stings the heart, angers thy soul.
Insecure they reach maximum volume.
I cover my ears, pray for this all to end.
My mind wanders, am I really supposed to live here?
Will time apart resolve our problems?
I think once, I think twice, still no definite answer.
Seconds pass; minutes go by, I’m unsure.
Days come and go, months later, and the decision to leave still resonates.
The day has come- will I stay or will I go?