Feeling What I Want

I want to scream,
I want to shout,
There's an awful feeling boiling inside of me.
The anger,
The frustration,
I just want to find a way out,
I want to touch,
I want to feel,
Something other than what I want to shun,
The pain,
The blood,
Why won't these wounds just heal,
I hate it,
I love it,
It all comes out in a flood,
I go through all these things for what I truly want.