1.) I use up every ounce of energy inside me just to stay alive 

I don't have enough to keep up my disguise

All my energy goes to getting out of the bed in the morning and trying to eat

I can't smile to make your day complete

Because my energy would then be depleated

And I would be defeated

2.) Not smiling is the way that I can keep

My fake strength and people won't see that inside I am weak

Not smiling allows me to be predator instead of prey

And now I don't have to play

The cherrade of the fake smile on my face.

3.) I'm tired of parading around 

Trying not to forwn 

Trying to please you

As you spit on the ground.