I'm fine, I say

But under my breaath 

I say what I have left

On my mind

I'm fine

Because I have to be 

I have to be

Because my family relies on me

Relying on me to be fine

They want me to talk

But I know they don't really

Let's not even talk about reality

Reality engulfs me in waves of

freezing water

Yelling at me 

Telling me

To be stronger

Strength...what I don't have left

In my face strenght shows

But in the shadows 

Lies sleepless nights

And a blurry life 

Of pretending to be who i'm not

trying to untie the endless knot

in my mind

That is trying to get me to fall

Under pressure

And give myself away

Becoming another fake smile.