Real friends

Are a rope fastened around me

Guiding me, supporting me

lifting me up

But you

You’re just a thread

Ready to snap at any moment

And watch me fall

And enjoy it.

When did it change?

When did you go from talking by my side

To talking behind my back?

Was our friendship ever real?

Or was I just seeing an illusion

Of a friend I never had?

We laughed

We talked

We connected

For a little while

You were my shadow

And like a shadow

You followed me while I was in the sun

But left me while I was in the dark.

You went and joined the people

That we had always scorned

You bathed in the glory, the light

And you laughed at me along with them,

While I was completely blindsided.

The worst part is

You never told me the truth

It must have been too heavy for you

So instead of taking the right way

You pushed the burden onto me

You chose to live a lie.

You just let the truth build up

Into an avalanche

That crushed me

Knocked me flat.

I want you to know

It hurt

Seeing you in the halls

Laughing

With your new group of friends

I want you to know

It hurt

Keeping my chin up

As I walked past you

I want you to know

It hurt

When you brushed by

Without even a glance back

I was hurt.

I was falling.

But I also want you to know

That

All wounds heal over time

I wasn’t going to let you injure me forever

I made new friends

New ropes

To lift me up

And I forgive you

Because

Fake friend

I’m over you.