Where are you?

I know I have lost thee,
before there was a sign.
I know I am weaker,
that compels me to thine.

Your presence still relies,
deep in my mind.
You keep me wandering, why you're so kind.

It takes time,
to know whats mind.
To decide if you're sweet like berries,
or bitter like wine.

Someone against me, or someone to agree.
Someone to trust again,
to bring me to thee.