I Take Back My Friendship

By , Riverside, RI
i take back my friendship.

i take back the notes we passed in english class,
the secrets told and memories shared and promises of “best friends forever”,
our secret codes,
walking around our neighborhood,
sitting in your room playing guitar and singing and talking for hours,
hanging around at crescent park and the beach eating candy and
carving our names into a tree “annie and ellla bffl” and
sitting outside school listening to the beatles-

i take it all back.

i take back my tears
that i cried when you turned against me;
and i take back the years
i spent missing how you used to be.

i take back the part of me you stole
and carry myself from you so far
away from the wreck that you are;
and i let myself be made whole
of who i completely am and not the
destruction you made me into.

i take back the ruined life you laid
for me to live and
i take back the person i was that you made
me to be and
i take back letting myself grieve
our ending;
i take back the lies you forced me to believe
that made me a slave to your cruelty;
a slave to your memory.

i take back the years of hurt that i carried so quietly;
suffering because you made me believe
i deserved it-
i take back all the pain and i leave.

i take all the words you used to hurt me,
and all the things you did to destroy me,
and i finally let myself be free
from your misery.

i take back my friendship.





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horsewriter4evr said...
Nov. 18, 2011 at 10:43 pm
i like this poem, it seems like everyone goes through this once in their life with a friend i really like this poem also because it explains pretty much everything about a "friendship brake-up"
 
Duckie430 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Nov. 21, 2011 at 10:44 am
thank you! glad you could relate!
 
HanaMizz14 said...
Nov. 16, 2011 at 11:35 pm
This is literally what I'm going through with my bestfriend and it sucks. :/ I love the poem though. Shows a lot about a person who can pick up the pieces and move on.
 
Duckie430 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Nov. 17, 2011 at 8:04 pm
Thank you! The comments I like the best from people are the ones that say they can relate bcuz poetry is my way of getting out my feelings, & it's great to know that other people have had the same feelings & situations.
 
FallibleAger said...
Nov. 16, 2011 at 11:19 pm
I really liked this, my fave quote was "a slave to your memory" ! I thought the last line should have ended with a bit more punch but really awesome job! :)
 
Duckie430 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Nov. 17, 2011 at 8:01 pm
Thank you very much! & about the last line, i wanted it to be the same as the first line...but anyways, I appreciate that you liked the poem :)
 
FallibleAger replied...
Nov. 23, 2011 at 10:45 am
OH that makes sense, duh, I feel dumb now. Keep writing!
 
Darien328 said...
Nov. 15, 2011 at 7:17 pm
this is so sad, but so beautiful. I love it, but I am sorry.
 
Duckie430 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Nov. 16, 2011 at 10:56 am
thank you so much! this poem is very personal to me, but it took years for me to finally be able to write it. thank you for your kind comments :)
 
Darien328 replied...
Nov. 16, 2011 at 11:11 am
You're very welcome. And you did a great job. Please continue writing
 
Duckie430 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Nov. 16, 2011 at 11:19 am
You can check out my other poetry if you'd like...just advance search for Riverside, RI bcuz all my work is published anonymously. :)
 
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