Dear Diary

Today was like
any other day
when I scream for help
he just walks away

I say "I love you"
and he doesn't care
he ignores me
like I'm not even there

He acts like it never happened
but I know that it did
he seems so ashamed
of me, his own kid

I thought my Daddy loved me
but I guess it's not true
he is never impressed
with anything that I do

I hate myself
for being this way
yet I endure my pain
day by day

If I was different
would things be the same?
WOuld I still be
Enduring this pain?

Maybe it would be different
if I was dead
so without another thought
I put a gun to my head





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bRonwYn_e said...
Apr. 10, 2009 at 1:36 pm
I liked this poem until the very end where it says 'i put a gun to my head.' i don't really know what you ment by that. but in the case that you are thinking about suicide, listen. suicide is a way of "escape," but it would be the dumbest mistake, literally. I know about suicide. a very close realative killed himself by holding a gun up to his head and pulling the trigger. please pass it on. SAS(sisters against suicide).
 
bRonwYn_e said...
Apr. 10, 2009 at 1:36 pm
I liked this poem until the very end where it says 'i put a gun to my head.' i don't really know what you ment by that. but in the case that you are thinking about suicide, listen. suicide is a way of "escape," but it would be the dumbest mistake, literally. I know about suicide. a very close realative killed himself by holding a gun up to his head and pulling the trigger. please pass it on. SAS(sisters against suicide).
 
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