I knew it was going to happen sonner or later but i guess i just wasnt prepare. i hadnt realized how much it was going to hurt me making that decision. i cried all night just thinking how much i really loved him and was hoping that someday i was going to be with him. he made me believe that we were going to be together and i felt for it. All he could say was ok i wont call you instead of telling me or at least begging me to still wait for him. But whats going to make him leave his gf now that shes pregnant. i dont want to get in between that anymore. even thought i just wish everything was different. sometimes i fell like calling him up and telling him i really love him. to please leave her and be with me. but who am i to ruin a family. no matter what they are always going to be part of him. and ill be just a memory, fading away as time passes by.
March 8, 2009