IN HONOR OF RIKA AND CHARLES'
THE TRUTH BEHIND THE LIES IS I CRY ALL THE TIME
EVEN WHEN EVERYTHING IN LIFE I JUST FINE
NO ONE SEEMS TO UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH
BUT IT BREAKS MY HEART EVERYTIME MY PHONE RINGS AND IT IS NOT YOU
AND WHEN I REACH FOR YOUR HAND AND ALL I GRAB IS AIR
I WAS HOPING SO MUCH THAT THIS TIME YOU WOULD BE THERE
OR WHEN I WAKE UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT FROM ONE OF THOSE SCARE YOU AWAKE TYPE DREAMS
AND I'M ALONE IN THE DARK LEFT TO LISTEN TO MY SCREAMS
I STILL SEE YOUR FACE IN EVERY SECOND OF EVERY DAY
AND NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY IT WILL NOT GO AWAY
BUT WHAT HURTS THE MOST IS PEOPLE STARRING AT ME WITH THOSE SAD EYES
AND THEY WANT SO MUCH TO SAY I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH BUT THEY KNOW IF THEY DO THEN IT WOULD BE ALL LIES
SO THEY JUST STARE AT MY FACE AND WONDER WHAT TO SAY
WHEN ALL I NEED TO HEAR IS THAT IT'S GONNA BE OKAY
AND SOMEBODY MAYBE JUST TO HOLD MY HAND
NOT LIKE YOU DID OF COUSRE BUT MAYBE JUST AS FRIENDS
BUT EVEN THEN I DOUBT I WOULD BE ABLE TO GO ON
BE CAUSE LIFE WITH OUT YOU IS LIKE A CD WITH NO SONG
IT'S LIKE BEYONCE WITH NO JAY Z
OR LIKE LEMON WITH NO TEA
IT'S LIKE YOU WITHOUT ME
IT'S JUST NOT HOW THINGS WERE MEANT TO BE
I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO FIGUR OUT WHY YOU LEFT ME
NOW I'M ALONE AND I HAVE A HEART THAT'S SHATTERED
AND I WAITING FOR YOU TO PUT IT BACK TOGETHER LIKE YOU DID LAST TIME BUT I GUESS THAT'S NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN
AND IT KILLS ME TO SAY I HAVE TO GO ON WITH LIFE
BECAUSE TO ME IT JUST DOES NOT FEEL RIGHT
TO LEAVE US BEHIND AND TRY TO START A NEW BEGINNING
BECAUSE EACH DAY WITHOUT YOU SIMPLY FEELS LIKE ANOTHER SAD ENDING
AND I'M LEFT THINKING ABOUT OUR DREAM OF ME CARRYING YOUR CHILD AND HAVING YOUR LAST NAME
BUT NOW THAT'S NEVER GONNA HAPPEN SO I'M WONDERING HOW DO I DEAL WITH THE CHANGE
OR HOW DO I COPE WITH THE PAIN
AND HOW DO I STAY SAIN
CAUSE EITHER WAY IT'S ALL THE SAME; YOU'RE NOT HERE AND I'M LEFT STANDING BESIDE MYSELF
AND I HAVE NO ONE TO REACH TO WHEN I NEED HELP
I MEAN YEAH I HAVE FAMILY AND FRIENDS BUT THEY ARE NO YOU
SO I GUESS WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY I BAE WHAT DO I DO
WITH OUT YOU HERE EVRYTHINGS GOING WRONG
AND I'M TRYINGSO HARD SO HARD TO BE STRONG
BUT WITHOUT YOU EVERYTHING SEEMS TWICE AS HARD AND FOUR TIMES AS LONG
AND I HAVE TROUBLE JUST PUSHING ON
I JUST NEED TO HERE IT ONCE MORE TO KNOW THAT IT WAS TRUE
SO ONE NIGHT CAN YOU VISIT ME IN ONE OF THOSE SCARE YOU AWAKE TYPE DREAMS AND SCARE ME AWAKE TELLING ME BAE I LOVE YOU