i am lost

unable to touch
cant feel
lacking lust
wanting you so much

unable to see
who i am or who you want me to be
look in the mirrors
in tears
over the scars
from your childhood years

unable to hear
the voice that comforted the tears
ignored advice
thought i was able to suffice for me living here
well i was wrong
deaf to your screams
piercing through me
killing me

unable to smell
ignorant to the metallic scent of blood
lingering in the air
the repugnant odor
unable to cease

unable to taste
mouth numb
like novacaine
but really from
mind numbing lies

i am lost