Thoughts of you take over the time I should rest, it's hard here without you but I am trying my best. I miss you more each day I am alive, it's making it incredibly difficult to survive. I know I hurt you in the worst possible way, but I still sit here in bed at 2:28 am asking God for you back while I pray. I never wanted us to get this bad, I thought I was giving everything I had. But I didn't fight hard enough and now I will, only if you let me, if you love me still. So please, keep me in your life. I want to be your bestfriend and someday even your wife.