Monster

There’s a monster hiding
Somewhere in the bends of my life
I’m terrified, where will he show up next?
How dare he say he misses me, it can’t be true.
If only he knew the pain and suffering he has put me through
So many tears cried over him, my brother
So much pain, because of him, that won’t disappear
Why won’t he disappear?
I just want him to disappear…
I think I’m vanishing myself
Because there’s a monster hiding
Somewhere in the bends of my life
I’m terrified, where will he show up next?
How dare he say I hate him, after I stood up for him, even when he was the one in the wrong?
Manipulated
Knocked down over, and over again
You stole
You lied
I don’t understand why you’re like this?
You know she left me too
You’re not the only one who has that feeling of abandonment bothering you
Midnight fights
Skipping school
Why was I such a fool?
Why did I let you trick me so many times?
You said you’d try harder, you’d do better, well you’re a lair
My hearts on fire, it hurts so much
Knocking me down, chasing me around
Tears in my eyes
You’ve told way too many lies
My heart always buys them
Even though my mind tells me no
My heart wants to believe you
When my mind knows the truth
There’s a monster hiding
Somewhere in the bends of my life
I’m terrified, where will he show up next?
I let you use trust as a tool, bait
Well I guess I’m too late, to save you now
I still don’t understand how
You terrorized and destroyed
All joy, happiness gone
And Dawn she’ll never know
As your sadness continues to grow older
She’ll never be that shoulder you can lean on
There’s a monster hiding
Somewhere in the bends of my life
I’m terrified, where will he show up next?
I can’t take this anymore
Never knowing what’s in store
Lore me in, then tear me down
Making me feel like a clown
Now you live so far away, in a different town
You barely come around
But you’re still that monster hiding
Somewhere in the bends of my life
I’m terrified, where will you show up next?