As I weep
I come to the realization
That it’s over
That everything
I had strived for
Was gone

As I wept
My friend
Strode through the door
Ice cream and tissues in hand

But this
was no ordinary loss
No
Those can’t be prevented
destine to fail
But this
This was ruined
wrecked
forever

And he left
I cried through my knees
Shaking and sobbing
yet
clearly
telling him
to ---- off

It wasn’t me
it was him
wasn’t it?
I said 3
and he said 4
4
that ruined everything

Wasn’t it?
I said my words
said them
with everything
I felt in my heart
with everything
I had
I waited
for him
to return
the everlasting
favor

And yet
he sat up
ran his fingers through his hair
and looked me in the eyes
4 words
slowly
quietly
I
Don’t
Love
You

I sat there
in disbelief
and denial
4 words
not
3 words

I tried
with all I had
to hold on
but I couldn’t
so I wept
and he sat
there like the idiot he is
not knowing
what to do

He could have
he could have
fixed it
or at least
could have tried
But he didn’t
and
I think
It was that
that brought me
to the realization
of who he was

As he moved forward
I snapped
I looked at him
fear
hate
loss
and sorrow in my eyes
That’s when
I told him
to ---- off

And he left
and 5 min. later
my friend
my best friend
rushed to me

But I just wept on
as she
hugged and
talked my through it
she cried with me
as he should have done

I looked
to the Ice Cream
knowing what
it meant
I thought this
was different
not destine to fail
but perhaps it was
maybe I just had to find it
to see it there

I looked to my friend
smiled as much
as I could
and slowly
very slowly
asked her
it she’d brought
spoons