I want to look
into your eyes, your dark
black eyes with care,
and believe you when you say
everything is
Okay.

I want to see you
next to me in the bleak
future someone has eagerly
prepared for me. In the future
I do not see myself in.
I want to believe you
when you say things,
but I can't. I find myself
lying to you everyday.

I look into your eyes
and lie straight
to your face and tell you
that I am alright
when really I am
dying inside.
I want to look straight into
your eyes and say everything
is okay. Like you say to me...

When I am smiling, I want
you to figure out that I am struggeling
in silence, trying to find my real purpouse.
I want you to
see the tears streaming
down my face and realize
that I am happy being
dead.
I want you to see that
Nothing is
Okay.

I want to see
my crimson eyes mix with your
gorgeous black eyes
and see that I love you
but nothing will ever
be okay...

I want you to look into
my eyes and say everything is okay
and believe it.

When the tears
fall, maybe you'll realize
I like to feel alone and
be by myself...
When I am alive and smiling,
I am dying. Falling deeper
into a abyss of darkness with
nothing but a blade to cut the wound deeper...

I want to look into your
eyes
and believe that I am wrong.

But will I ever
be? Can you prove me
Wrong?

Look into my wet eyes
and see that
nothing will
ever
be okay.