As I sit
And look at what I’ve done
I can’t believe
The person I have become.

I want people to understand
The heartache and pain
The heartache other people cause
And the pain I may bring.

These times are the hardest
Teenage years are the worst
But yet they say
These are the best years of our lives.

I wish I was little again
Back when I didn’t understand.
Things I never did,
And thought I never would.

People say you have no problems
But how would they know?
They’ve never spent
One minute in my shoes.

I’m tired of putting on a mask
That hides the real me
Just so people won’t see
What I could turn out to be.

I cry myself to sleep at night.
Thinking.
Thinking about everything I want
And everything I need.

I know.
I know it isn’t the answer.
But it’s there a temptation
Just as my closest friends will always be.

As I sit
And look at what I’ve done
I can’t believe
The person I have become.

A girl who hurts herself
So no one else can.
Who pretends to be
Someone they will understand