Yesterday

I was

Found

Hiding in the thicket

Of tangled thorny lies

And fears hidden by nervous reactions

But

The leaves have all dropped out now

My armor

No longer impenetrable steel

A sharp remark

Beats at my last fragile shield

Pale old deceptions

Flinch at a sudden glare

Truth has a way

Of eating you apart

I'm almost gone

My remains are scarce but pure


Yesterday, I was

Crawling

A stranger to myself

Fighting a reluctant battle

My anger erupting

One wrong word spit out

Then

Silence


Yesterday, I was
Sold out

By an enemy

Burrowed deep

Inside myself

The unforgiving war we fought

Ended briskly

Many lives were

Lost

I don't recognize

The face I've so

Delicately molded

Yesterday

Hard, bittersweet anger

Ate away

What was left

Of my shielded soul



Today

I am a lost dreamer

A bitter sailor

No thrill for unknown lands

A silent screamer

Finding no peace in the

Soundproof walls

of selfish minds


Today

I am scratching away

At a pad of

White-hot paper

My hostile mind

Is exhausting

I'm trying for

Something more

But it's all in vain


I am

Recording

Something I

Hope to never

Remember

I am thirsty for

The sweet simplicity

Of a blank slate

But I must live with what I've done

As I will have to live

With what

I've

Become