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I stay up during the wee hours of night.
Trying too stay strong
Trying too fight.
The urges of crying
Slip in and out
I know that I am afraid
I know that without a doubt.
I ask myself.
Am I lucky too have an opportunity to another day.
Or is this a curse?
That answer I still can not say.
I want so bad to love life.
But life
Just keeps stabbing me like a butcher knife.
In and out ,
over and over again.
Each day feels like
The pain will never end.
I want too scream
But no sounds come out.
Why is god doing this too me
Why is this my route?
Love
Pain
Hurt
Vain
My emotions takes control of me.
This is not who I want to be.
Losing all hope as the days turn into weeks
And the weeks turn into months
And the months turn into years.
And yet,
i still have these tears.
Wanting to die since the age of nine.
When my mother got sick
And I was left behind
I prayed that she would get better
And wished she would return
But that never did me any good
In which I shortly learned.
My dad told me lies
To keep the pain inside.
Never REALLY letting me know
So that his true feelings wouldn’t show.
Then I realized that my mom wasn’t just sick
As if my dad made it out to be
Like she just had the common cold
And she would come back to me.
And that’s when
My bad behavior started to unroll
“IT WAS UNTOLED”
You can say
Yet, it wouldn’t make a difference anyway.
But I still don’t get why.
why was it a secret?
Why so many lies/
And denies?
I mean,
People make mistakes.
It’s not like we have a time machine
To go back
And re-take
Re-take
Re-take.
If that was too ever happen
The world would come to a end
Cause nobody’s perfect
Not even god my friend.
Vise versa
It’s better to just move on from the past.
Cause agony and pain is bound too last.
So why is it so hard for me to just move on?
Maybe cause all my goals have vanished,
POOF!
GONE!
Like magic
It slowly slipped away
And know I’m sitting here,
Where I am at today.
If I could go back
Yeah.I would
Re-take
Re-take
Re-take
But like I said previously.
We all make mistakes.