I refuse to shed anymore tears because they keep me holding on to those last fears, remembering this past year..I cant stand it, no cant stand it. I keep my head held high but deep inside i fall back, just want to put an end to all that. Im strong but Im weak. I feel like another freak. All I build inside begins to leak. Tears come in heavy flows & at this point, i just dont know. I have nowhere else to go but in side of me, no longer speaking my mine. if you pay attention youll just see i hide, cant look noone in the eyes. Im almost gone, no more tears. just gonna block out this past year, & the next years. I wont try to control my life no more. No drugs again as i try holding on to my few friends.
July 25, 2010