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(I'm Sorry) I'm Not The Perfect Slave

December 8, 2009
By Anonymous

I’m sorry I’m not the perfect slave, mommy I really am
I never knew what was to come
You said it’d fade by then
But then is now and now is then
Look at all your mistakes
You are just the same as him, he is what you are
Don’t try to apologize, just fall to the floor

I’m sorry I’m not the perfect slave, mommy I really am
You said there was a place for daddy
a cold and dark room
A way to get what he deserved
But now you desert me too
Never have I felt this way, alone and so very cold
This is how leave me, not even a teddy bear to hold

I’m sorry I’m not the perfect slave, mommy I really am
You said we’d run away together
Be free once again
Away from all that daddy did
Away from all the pain
Never did you care so little
You left me here in vain

I’m sorry I’m not the perfect slave, mommy I really am
I didn’t dust the top of the cabinet
I really am so small
Just like you said, I’ll grow tall
But I never did
I’m so sick of your lies
All the lessons that you fed me

I’m sorry I’m not the perfect slave, mommy I really am
You said the things that daddy said
That is when I cry
When you do the things that daddy does
That’s when I wanna die
But when daddy does those things
I never even sigh

I’m sorry I’m not the perfect slave, mommy I really am
I feel so alone
I feel cold once again
Maybe because I wasn’t fed
Maybe from the work
I know that life is hard
But not as cruel as this

I’m sorry I’m not the perfect slave, mommy I really am
It never should have ended this way
You should never have gone
Away from here, so far away
To the land where daddy stays
A place of no return
Where you may dwell in your mistakes

I’m sorry I’m not the perfect slave, mommy I really am
You never let me down before
So why didn’t you do it then
So I could find good from bad
Run away from the shadows
So this smile I place upon my face
Would be a little more believable

I’m sorry I’m not the perfect slave, mommy I really am
I hear your footsteps, and draw the dagger
I pierce where you said my heart was
You deserve to find me, daddy won’t care
I hope that now you’re happy
You act like I’m you’re imperfect slave
Lifeless, on the outside now as well

I’m sorry I’m not the perfect slave, mommy I really am
But now I can see the bright bright clouds
And I am filled with joy
I just leave this to say goodbye
And I’m sorry for my mistakes
I guess I’m not the perfect slave


The author's comments:
Well here's my little tearjerker of the day! I began to think about the worst, how fortunate I was, so I decided to step into another's shoes, and just try to be them. This fictional poem is about a little girl, small and fragile, she falls into the world. I just hope this demonstrates how tough life can be, but in NO way do I permit suicide, abuse, or starvation in anybody.

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