Forgive Me

I know right now,
Forgiveness must seem
Like a crazy dream
That could never be real
I see the tears run down your face
I see how you avoid me
I finally have
What I’ve always wanted
I didn’t realize
How much I’d hate it
You run from me
Wary of my attack
And I can’t bear it

We’ve quarreled and fought
For years,
But for you, this is the last straw
You sit there in terror,
Rocking back and forth
In a fetal position
I look at my hands and think
I am a monster of the worst kind
You are an amazing person
I don’t deserve to know
I lashed out
Because you yelled
And I felt like a slave
But after what I’ve done
I don’t feel I deserve
To be even that

Please forgive me, ease my guilt
I see you won’t come near near me
I can’t believe
How much I’ve hurt you
And I hate myself
Forgive me so I can live again
Please