I can't explain what I am feeling. I am dissappointed, but yet joyful. Is this wrong? Giving this love thing my everything was easy, but when it came to taking it back I felt like I wasn't in control. I was being taken over by something that may or may not exist. Crazy you might say. Well, I agree. Nothing can take away my feelings for him. In my heart I will always love him. I accept this punishment whether it's from God or from my own faults. Whatever this is or was, it will stay with me forever and always.
June 1, 2009