it feels like your ripping my heart out. everyday you dont talk to me feels like im trying to walk through fire. there is a gaping hole in my gut and there is nothing in the world that i can do to make it go away.im lost and empty. im losing my mind. i cant think and im confused about every choice i have to make. its like my head is in the clouds, but the clouds are only nails ripping my head apart. people try to reach out; to tell me its okay, but they cant reach me. not through the screaming pain that my heart and body are going through. im hopeless and completely helpless. there is nothing anyone can do to help me now. im barely sane enough to make it through one day. barely sane enough to looke at my face in a mirror. barely san enough to be touched, to be hugged; to have any friends at all. barely sane enough to hear your name; to see your face.