"It's ok."

I hear that a lot. 

Yes knowing that you think its justified for someone to have cancer makes me feel 1000 times better. I guess I can't describe how it feels to find out your mum has cancer for the second time. The pain yu have to witness one of the people you love go through is immense and horrible. You stand there wishing you could help them, do anything for them. But theres nothing you can do. Helpless. I guess that would be the word for it. Its like having evrything you love being tortured in front of your eyes. I would go to school everyday knowing that one day I might come home to an empty house , void of my mum, void of the life she had. I can't imagine it. I would never want too. How could you? Cancer is worse than a disease it a life ruiner and as I write this I see what it does to people, what it did to my family. If I lived a thousand lives with a thousand hardships still could Inever describe the pain you feel in those moments of weakness. This is why it's never "ok".