Can’t he leave me alone? Every time it goes well for me, he shows up and ruins it all. Every time I get on my feet he just knocks me down again. I’m moving on over him but every time I go a step forward he brings me 10 steps back.
He is the one who wanted to end it. He is the one who decided for both of us without even asking me. And now, that I am finally okay with it, now that I can go back to the way we were before. Now that I am almost done with picking up pieces of my broken heart. He comes and throws all my efforts away. Why does he affect me that much after all what happened? Why can’t I cut him off? Why am I so weak when it comes to him? I do my best to stay away from him but it is apparently not enough.
After a week of absence I can’t resist not answering him back when he texts me wondering why I’ve disappeared. At  the very moment I sent the message i regret it immediately. I just can’t seem to learn from my mistakes. I start hating myself because of him. I really do. I want to ask him not to look after me anymore, but if I do, then I will confirm him that I’m still hurt and not completely over him. Among all the mistakes I’ve made in my life, dating him is the one I regret the most.