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What Am I?

September 1, 2014
By Olivia-Atlet ELITE, Dardenne Prairie, Missouri
Olivia-Atlet ELITE, Dardenne Prairie, Missouri
324 articles 10 photos 1166 comments

Favorite Quote:
"To these the past hath its phantoms,
More real than solid earth;
And to these death does not mean decay,
But only another birth"
- Isabella Banks


Many people have called me a prodigy, but is that what I am?

Yes, I did write a book in fourth grade; it was about a PRINCESS for God’s sake. (And it was only 40 pages long)

I wrote another one in fifth grade. That one was about mermaids and a cranberry-sauce eating shark. I think that should speaks for itself.

I wish I could own that title, but I am not a prodigy. I sit and write, and write, and write, and write some more; just to edit one page. I don’t think it comes as easily to me as you think it does.

I do love writing, and I am very intelligent, but I don’t deserve all of your praise. I am an untalented, highly stressed teenager. I suppose I’m just average in the eyes of society.

I am not a thought provoking, deep minded child. Trust me on that one.

Or you can ask the people on wattpad, -even teen ink- that won’t read my work because it’s too long, not humorous, or because it's just too dark for them. I wonder what their thoughts on my work are. We’ll never know; no one takes the time to read it.  

It puts me down, but at least my head isn’t too high up. At least I have someone to keep me down, because I really need that. I need to be sad in order to be great, right?

    That’s what they tell me anyway.

    I’ve been called softhearted, naive, and even idiotic because of the kindness I lavish on others. After I do something nice for them and ask politely for some feedback, they say no. Which is fine, there wasn’t a deal or anything, but some of them take it further by commenting on my age, or how I cannot possibly know the world yet. I cannot POSSIBLY understand how tyrannical the thoughts of being unique are when all your peers and teachers make fun of you for it. My tiny underdeveloped brain does not have the capacity to understand.

    They don’t know me. They can’t tell me that what they say doesn’t hurt. They have no idea how many of my ‘friends’ won’t even acknowledge the fact that I have feelings, but you know what?

I don’t care. I will write as many pages as I want, sing more songs from the bottom of my heart than is physically possible, and hope with all I’ve got. Because if someone won’t take the time to read the words I paint with my soul, then they are not mean, rude, or busy.

They are not worth it.

If they don’t help me, then I have one thing to say; your loss. I don’t need your opinion, and you don’t need a thank you.

I want to say something before I go on;

Thank you to all of those who have read and commented without a real rhyme or reason, and have left me SO happy.

Thank you @ModerndayEmilyDickenson. You commented on EVERYTHING of mine, and I cannot describe how grateful I am!

Thank you @Hanban12 for supporting me through all the hard times of getting noticed, I will always remember what you guys did for me.

If you’re sitting there thinking; Wow, this girl can rant.

I don’t care. Which makes me that ‘Unique’ everyone’s talking about behind their Starbucks cups.

 


The author's comments:

I wrote this after recieving some comments that truly had NO thought whatsoever put into them. Thanks for the feedback from the people who care and don't ask 'Who has time to read all of that?" Because obviously he does, because if he didn't, why would he have the time to comment?

 

Love you guys so much! :)


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on Oct. 10 2014 at 9:43 pm
Olivia-Atlet ELITE, Dardenne Prairie, Missouri
324 articles 10 photos 1166 comments

Favorite Quote:
"To these the past hath its phantoms,
More real than solid earth;
And to these death does not mean decay,
But only another birth"
- Isabella Banks

Thanks for your emcouragement and everything you do for me :)

on Oct. 9 2014 at 2:25 pm
EmilytheBelleofA. DIAMOND, Athens, Georgia
81 articles 5 photos 1492 comments

Favorite Quote:
To love is to be vulnerable; Triumph is born out of struggle; We notice shadows most when they stand alone in the midst of overwhelming light.

I love this. I'm sorry, it took me awhile to comment on this. :( :( I wish you knew, how sorry I am. I agree that you are unique. Everyone is. :) But if it's alright to say this, I disagree with you saying your untalented, highly stressed teenager. You are a wonderful and a amazing friend and person and writer; I know I've said that so many times, but why I say that is because I believe it. :) Sure, you can get stressed; highly stressed. But everyone can too. I just want you to know, that you're wonderful and awesome, more than you know. :) Never give up. You are someone. You are you. And you being you, is unque and powerful and just beautiful. Thank you for sharing this, my friend. :)


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