Get Our
Print Magazine

48 pages of creative bliss. Written by teens for teens since 1989.
Subscribe!
See us on Facebook,
MySpace & Twitter
   
Home > All Nonfiction > Fitting In

Fitting In This piece has been published in Teen Ink's monthly print magazine.

Rate this article:
By Sagechime, Providence, RI
I wouldn’t ask for a dressing room. My mom always asked for me.
The evening before I had repeatedly risen from my seat and piled on excess noodles suffocated in meat sauce. Then I licked my bowl
Photo credit: Sarah M., Blairsville, PA
with the buttered garlic bread, leaving no evidence of the four servings I had inhaled. In the morning I would be forced to lie on my bed and suck in my stomach just to button my jeans. I dreaded school shopping. The sale rack, with its slender size markers, knew my number continued to bloat.

I learned how to eat from my dad: fast and without thinking. In our house, the dinner table involved battle, with the children on defense. One false move and our dinner would be snatched off our plates without warning and gobbled up by our father faster than we could blink. We soon learned to keep a hand up while devouring our chicken strips, and if Mom decided to cook that night we needed to hurry and get seconds before it was gone.

Only one pair of jeans I tried on fit. I lied and told my mother I could button every pair but only needed the jeans that lay guarded in my hands. We walked to the checkout.

I kept my head down as we passed a group of girls. They whispered. I glanced up only long enough to know my place. Their eyes cut at me, hands cupped over their mouths in secrecy.

***

The recess bell rang and I followed two girls in my third grade class out past the monkey bars to the fenced grassy area. We all wore the same clothes that year: khaki pants and polo shirts. Everyone was the same, or that was the idea.

“I like your pants. Where did you get them?” Marcy asked Alicia. I nodded in agreement, thankful they had removed their cupped hands and I could hear the conversation.

“Really? I like yours better,” Alicia replied.

“We should trade. What size are you?” Marcy asked.

“I don’t know …” Alicia said, finding the tag in the back of her pants. “Seven.”

“Me too,” Marcy said.

***

I hid in line as I held the jeans, tag folded in so nobody could see the number inscribed on it was 12. I am not a size seven.
This piece has been published in Teen Ink's monthly print magazine.This piece has also been published in Teen Ink's monthly print magazine.

Join the Discussion


This article has 46 comments. Post your own!

peacelover said...
Nov. 13 at 10:29 pm:

I truly could relate to how you felt by trying to sqeeze into jeans and lying to your mom about them not fitting.. it happens to me all the time too. I hate dressing rooms because I always feel huge when I look into the mirror, but I just tell myself that everyone is beautiful in thier own way - you are too! Don't let typical skinny girls bring you down

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
megstar96 said...
Nov. 13 at 5:02 pm:

I LUV IT i sometimes feel the same way. I wanted to cry for the little girl

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
dylonmichael said...
Nov. 13 at 9:53 am:

i really like it....it sucks being different than every one else but at the same time its kind of fun not being another copy of some one else...im overweight and i am kind of ashamed of my self but at the same time im not... idk right now i am in the process of exercising more and eating healthyer to loose weight

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
flute_bandie1493 said...
Nov. 12 at 10:42 am:

I was the same way that year! still am! lol but I've come to love the body I'm in, and as i'm getting taller, i find myself thinning out a bit! im in high school now, but nothings changed since then on how ppl treat each other

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
Cierra(: said...
Nov. 11 at 1:51 pm:

i agree with Corynn..it shouldnt always be about looks, personality is more important.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
Corynn H. said...
Nov. 11 at 1:40 pm:

This was a pretty good story/article. I'm really sorry but I really believe that fitting in is more about who you are and not what you look like.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
shywriter said...
Oct. 30 at 12:33 am:

Simple, yet beautiful.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
Britt<3 said...
Oct. 22 at 10:23 pm:

This is so awesome. I love it!

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
firstsnowfalls said...
Oct. 22 at 2:58 pm:

wow. very powerful!

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
heartsday said...
Oct. 22 at 2:54 pm:

so inspiring :) lovely writing, great idea.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
VampireDory16 said...
Oct. 22 at 12:28 pm:

All I can say is wow. I've been there. Incredible piece.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
Emmalee said...
Oct. 22 at 11:16 am:

Been there.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
sb013 said...
Sep. 30 at 9:52 pm:

i love this! it is something that everyone can relate too. every girl has trouble with their "size". & they just got to learn to embrace it:]

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
soccerfreak12 said...
Sep. 30 at 2:14 pm:

I really like your article!! I think everyone can relate to this. You should be proud that you are a size! Love you for who you are!!(:

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
writer24/7/365 said...
Sep. 30 at 6:37 am:

this is so good. i've been that girl when i go shopping.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
booboo said...
Sep. 29 at 11:52 am:

i think every one can realte to this story but in different ways. you wil get threw it! we did (:

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
BellaLuna said...
Sep. 4 at 9:48 pm:

me too! i know how it feels and i have walked out of a store in tears crying. im not anymore but ive been there

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
ilikepie said...
Sep. 4 at 6:59 pm:

I loved your story. I've been through a lot of things similar to that, and now I'm used to it, I just ignore them, and smile anyways because I know I;m beautiful, and you are too.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
practicerandomkindness said...
Jul. 13 at 7:52 am:

This is so true and so well-written. I am "normal"(whatever that means) sized, but i didnt used to be and i know how u feel. girls worry about their weight and others' weight too much these days. keep up the good work!

 
phoenixqueen replied...
Nov. 7 at 6:34 pm :

I agree. girls worry about their weight too much (myself included) and it really isn't that big a deal.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
Anne R. said...
Jul. 8 at 5:32 pm:

i can tell you have siblings, because if this was fiction you would not be able to express how kids in a big family eat. ive got two brothers and thats why i eat so fast.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
thea22 said...
Jun. 29 at 9:07 pm:

this was great! u are u and thats what makes you unique.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
sallyloco said...
Jun. 22 at 2:37 am:

I know how you feel. I'm a seven but i'm NOT skinny believe me. At least you dont go to my school. All the guys go for size zero girls. I hate all of them. But one i think likes me!! *Giggles* i love your piece. It was published on bered.com did you know that? cool right?

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
millz said...
May 19 at 2:20 pm:

I love this!!! Dnt be ashamed of your size cuz we cant all be sevens.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
Madison M. said...
May 7 at 4:25 am:

hey! i loved this. i was just picking a random article to see what kind of writtings other people have and this is the one i landed on! i love it. i like the way you write its very similar to mine actually. but you could be a very great motivational writter!

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
nana.riley. said...
Apr. 28 at 4:15 pm:

i like this story because im goin through something like that right now. Dont feel ashmed of you size..Be glad of what you have..Dont look at the negitive.....look at the positve.. :)




Nana.. :]

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
Katie S. said...
Apr. 18 at 1:16 am:

wow(:
This is very good, I felt as if that was me.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
Crystal R. said...
Mar. 3 at 12:24 am:

I love this story i hope that there will be more.. i completely understand you and how you felt. I've gone up and down the weight scale yeah it's not fun but who cares it's not about the size jeans you wear it's really about the person inside then once you see that person you can look on the outside. But yes i loved this piece!<3333

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
menotu said...
Jan. 30 at 11:24 pm:

AWESOME WORK!!!! is it kid 7s or juniors i am a 14-16 in kids (im like 5'3) or a four-6 in juniors

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
Cutie111 said...
Jan. 20 at 7:48 pm:

I thought this story was really good beacuse i am not a 7 or below i'm a 14 and sometimes i wish i was a 7 but sometimes i like being a 14

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
Sofiaforevers said...
Jan. 20 at 5:58 am:

I am not a size 7 either. I am a size 14 today and have always struggled with my weight, although I have never been considered overweight by anyone around me except my mother. Like you, I have known the struggles of never being able to find a pair of jeans that fit me right. I used to think of myself as ugly because I see myself as imperfect, but this year I have made the effort to see myself in a better light and focus on my good qualities. I think everyone, but especially girls, should do that... (more »)

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
sleepy390 said...
Jan. 19 at 10:48 pm:

i luv how you wrote this..its really good!! 'but never mind wat hataz say..ignore them til they fade away.!'

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
Searching4More said...
Jan. 18 at 10:08 pm:

You have a lot of talent, this is a very good piece of work. But I want you to know, and everyone else reading this, that no matter your size, you are beautiful. I truly mean that. Not just on the inside, but on the outside too. Only one defines beauty and that is God, He created you with no accidents. You are beautiful, don't let anyone ever tell you diffrent :)

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
sharpy said...
Jan. 18 at 8:39 pm:

I loved your writing. If i had to rate on a scale of ten, it would be an eleven. I could totally relate to this piece because when I was in third grade I was over weight. At times I did feel alittle self conscience but over the years I lossed the weight and now feel very confident of myself.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
Emily123 said...
Jan. 18 at 6:01 am:

Oh wow. This is excellent! This is so relatable to so many people, and leaving the third grade part until the end created an awesome twist. You have great talent! Keep writing!

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
LoveYourself said...
Jan. 17 at 11:48 pm:

I love it! I mean, come on, though, third grade girls obsessing about weight??? What has this generation of kinds come to??? I may only be 14, but I mean, how did this all start? How did 3rd grade girls even become remotely INTERESTED in how much they weighed???? And I'm not critizing ur piece, if that's what it sounds like...I didn't mean it that way. Sorry if it sounded that way.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
Cuppacoffee said...
Jan. 17 at 1:08 am:

It was well written, although weight is a bit of an overdone topic. Yes, a lot of girls struggle with weight and fitting in. We know. Society is conditioning girls to obsess over weight. We also know.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
Akpp said...
Jan. 17 at 12:44 am:

I am a size 7 also i like this story but the girlz could be nicer though but w/e'z

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
Haley said...
Jan. 16 at 10:13 pm:

OMG!This is a really good 1!

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
Joy said...
Jan. 16 at 1:00 am:

This piece was heart-wrenching and beautiful. I know how it feels for those scenes to take place in a third grade environment. Looking back on it, I'm disgusted by what our society has turned young girls-- children-- into. Third grade girls obsessed with weight. You're a beautiful writer.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
spaznkool101 said...
Jan. 9 at 5:17 pm:

I could totally see this happening. But it's kind of sad that some thing like this would happen in a third grade environment. I really hate the standards that society has set on girls that they have to be a certain size to look good. Can't they just look good where we are. To see third graders ridiculed like they're in high school really shows you how much they really see in our every day world. The sad part is what they pick up from all of it.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
thefirstday said...
Jan. 8 at 1:41 am:

This is brilliant. I'm a size 7 but it doesn't feel good enough.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
Nerdgirl993 said...
Jan. 19 at 6:57 pm:

This really good. u really have some serious talent! i cnt wait to read the rest.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
BIGVision said...
Jan. 1 at 2:01 am:

Great expression...so vivid I felt as if I was there. Lets keep up the great work.

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment
 
MrTennis said...
Dec. 31, 2008 at 12:22 am:

That's my best frannn!!!

I know someone who's published! lol

 
Hannahbear replied...
Nov. 13 at 4:41 pm :

:(
This is really really good!!

 
Reply to this comment Post a new comment