I am in foster care and I have moved so much that I don´t feel loved anymore. My mom didn´t want me because I wasn´t my step-dad´s child. i have tried self harm and suicide but nothing seems to make me feel better. No one really wants to talk to me becuase I´m in foster care. I want someone to love me but nobody can handle me because of my past. A lot has happened to me and just for some of those reasons people don´t want to be with me. My dad molested me when I was four until I was about ten or eleven. I won´t sleep with anyone within the first month or two of dating so they don´t want to be with me. I feel like No One Loves Me.
First of all, su.i.ci.de and se.lf-ha.rm will never help. Ever.
Don't give up. Even if it seems like no one loves you now, someone will someday. A lot of people might not want to be around you because they are having problems of their own, and don't think they can handle the added stress of a friend in trouble, not because they don't like you. Or maybe they don't want to get close to you because they're afraid you'll move away to live with a different family. Keep in mind that you and all of your classmates are going through the same thing: hormones. They stress everyone out and make everything harder.
If someone doesn't want to be with you because you won't sleep with them, then they aren't worth it. They don't want you, they just want se.x.
Even though you don't have a lot of control over the situation now, sooner than you think you will be an adult. You won't have to move around, and you can live where you want and do what you want. You don't even have to think about looking for a relationship until then, because teenaged boys are immature and almost never actually looking for a real relationship, only the appearance of one and se.x. (I am in no way trying to insult guys here, not everyone is like this, and the ones who are aren't necessarily jerks, it's the hormones again)
Also, even if you don't believe in him, God loves you.
Thanks for the advice it means a lot to me
You're welcome. Here's my email if you want it. oliviackm at gmail dot co.m