So it started back in seventh grade...I was depressed, and for some reason something inside of me changed, I had no idea who I was. I noticed my gaze started to wander, and I seemed to take note of all the girls instead of guys. (I'm a girl) So I went the whole year terrified someone would notice. In eighth grade I became conviced I was straight...I had a crush on a guy we got together broke up yadayadayada. I haven't doubted my sexuality for a whole other year...but once again it's happening. I get the same feelings I did in seventh grade I wonder what it would be like to kiss a girl. A few weeks ago one of my best friends was explaining the LGBT community to me and she said that there is actually more than being either Les.bian B.i G.ay Trans.gender or just plain out Str.aight. She explained the Kinsley scale to me and how every one is somewhere on it whether it's plain out straight or just ambling somewhere about in in the scale. I started to think about this, and started to wonder "what if?" Maybe I'm not 100% straight...I feel that if there was a girl I had some sort of feeling for, ask me out...then I would probably give it a shot. There isn't really anyone like that right now, not really, right now I have this huge crush on this guy. Is it normal to wonder? I'm kind of confused, I've never doubted, but now I am...
It's normal, like REALLY normal.
Really? Do even straight people go through this? I don't think being B.i is weird...I'm not sure how my mom feels about B.ise.xuality she claims she doesn't have a problem with g.ay people or le.sbians...but I think I vaguely remember her saying B.i people confuse her because quote quote "they can't have the best of both worlds" but to me it makes perfect sense...
I'm straight, and I'm telling you in a very honest way (that makes me cringe, honestly) that I've felt an attraction for girls before.
Now, before I go more into this, I just want to say one thing—I would never ACT on these feelings, because of my beliefs, and because I've come to realize WHY I feel that way. That is, I'm an artist. You might at this point be thinking, okay?!?!? But this is the honest truth: I think I feel a certain attraction towards feminine beauty because I'm fascinated by ALL beauty. Interesting things intrigue me, and I know that I appreciate girls because we're so dam.n amazing ;). But I don't consider myself bi or ga.y in any way... Hope that made sense :P.
Now, that's just me. I think your feelings are normal, I just don't know what they stem from — a genuine feeling of interest in an emotional relationship with a girl? Or are you just attracted physically? This is an important consideration, because there can be different types of attraction.... I'd encourage you to think about it (or maybe you already know).
While its normal to have these feelings, I do feel like if you're wavering between being bi and straight, try being straight (for your own sake). It'll make your life much easier, and that's just the truth.
I don't wanna go into morals, so I'll just wish you luck, and if you need to talk, I'm here:)
Sorry for the weird spacing, I'm on my iPad :P
Thanks...I will think on it! xD
I'm bise.xual and my best friend is g.ay. I also had a friend at one point that was biologically a male but identifies as a female. The way I look at it, it has to be normal, otherwise you wouldn't be having these feelings. You can have the best of both worlds if you want it. I love how guys are all strong and rough, and you can't break them, and they don't get so emotional. I also love how soft and pretty and intelligent and affectionate girls are. There is no need to be ashamed of any aspect of your se.xuality. It's what makes you you. Not everyone sees it that way, and you will run into people who think hom.ose.xuality is a sin or whatever, but you can laugh in their face, because you know there is nothing wrong with it. I always assumed I was straight, but when I was in middle school, I had this relationship with a girl, and it was mind blowing. She was in 8th grade and I was in 6th. She understood and appreciated me for who I was and helped me come to terms with a lot of bad things that were happening at the time. I kissed her, and it was a typical hollywood moment, where I couldn't feel my extremities and my face tingled, and I couldn't breathe. I realized then that it doesn't matter what their gender is, its the person beneath the skin that counts.
Wow...thank you so much...that's beautiful! I guess it'll just take some time, to sort this out...I'm not ashamed, I guess I'm just scared of rushing into any "label" and finding out that I'm wrong. Thank you so much once again! xD
i won't share my opinion because you won't like it. but there is one thing you should know, NEVER label yourself, because when you do then you get caught up in yourself and never move on from your label. i have labeled my self as a christian before and boy was it hard to move past that. so please just do me a favor and don't label yourself:)
Thanks, I'll take that into consideration! xD