(Okay, just being sure.)
Adrian closed his eyes. "I'm sorry..." He whispered. He felt like he could be blamed for a part of all of it. He wasn't being very supportive of Shiloh's attempt to mother him. Part of it was just he didn't want her worrying over him so much when there was obviously something going on.
"I's not you faul', A'rian." Shiloh clutched her hair in frustration, feeling the scars on her scalp as she did so. Shiloh wasn't directing Shadow at all right now,
"I'm so''y, A'rian, I', rea''y t'yin' to be a goo' mo'her...I don' thin' I can be 'ough...I don' know wha' to d, I ha'e no e'ample to fo''ow...." Shiloh muttered confusedly,
"Oh an' wi'h me pro'a'ly ha'ein' a ba'y....I'll ne'er be goo' mo'her!" she exclaimed.
Adrian shook his head. "Shiloh please. Stop beating yourself up. I'm happy for you to just do your best. I'm sure you'll do just fine if you let your maternal instinct show you the way." He sighed. "You can practice on me.
"Bu' e'erti'e I try on you I s'rew up and ma'e you unha''y." Shiloh said. She let her hands drop and wrap around Adrian, clutching the horses mane tightly when she realized they were moving.
She stared at the trees they past by, swallowing as her stomach lurched again.
Adrian huffed. "You're not making me unhappy when you try I just..." He grimaced. "I don't know, I just miss my mom. It's hard to let anyone take her place. On top of that, I hate for you to worry or stress yourself because of me."
"I s'ress o'er alo' of thin's an'way. I don' wan' to re'apce your mom I jus' don' wan' to ma'e you grow u' on you'e ow'." Shiloh explained
"Shiloh..." Adrian twisted to look at her, eyes sincere. "I'm happy that I have someone who cares about me. Don't ever doubt that. Ever." He kissed her cheek. "Stop worrying, okay? I'm sure it'll all be alright."
Shiloh smiled slightly at Adrian,
"Than' you A'rian." she said kissing his forhead. She still had her hand clutching the mane of the horse tightly. She sniffed and looked around watching the scenery around her.
Shadow came to a stop after a while, to let them get off and rest for a while. He was mainly worrying about Shiloh. Since Nathan was wanting to be alone, he decided they could stand to waste a little time doing nothing.
Shiloh was very glad when Shadow stopped, she was tired adn feeling queasy. Shiloh slid off the horse and sat down her back propped against atree,Shiloh was also very hungry right now but didn't mention it. She was hungry but felt like if she ate she'd be sick becuase of her queasiness.
Adrian slid off the black horse's back. He looked around and sighed, his stomach growling. "Shiloh, I'm hungry." He said weakly, afraid to ask anything of her, but he didn't have a lot of experience hunting himself.
"Um...OK." Shiloh said standing up. Shiloh had hunted beofre when she lived on the run and could usually tell what was poisonous and what wasn't.
"S'ay he'e wi'h Sha'ow I'll ge' us so'ethin' to ea'." She siad before heading off into the woods. She picked up some sharp looking stones as she went. SHiloh was better at making traps but they didn't have the time for that right now. Along the way she made note of bushes with good berries on them to pick some up on her way back.
Adrian sighed and sat down, wishing he could have helped somehow, but he didn't know how. He watched Shadow for a while, lost in thought. He wasn't even sure what to do with himself. He felt useless and helpless. He was quickly growing impatient for Shiloh's return, worried about her.
Shiloh soon returned with two squirrel and an arm loded with sticks and berries. She put them down and took the knife out to start skinning the squirrels.
"A'rian p'ease ge' a fi'e goin'. She said pointing to the sticks.
Adrian nodded, gathering the sticks in preparation to make the fire. He soon had it going, rather easily. He smiled slightly with pride, glad he had something useful he could do. "One day I'll be a real fire-breather..." He murmured, his eyes sparkling.
Shiloh's eye brows knitted together in confusion,
"Wha' do you ca'' wha' you doin' now?" She asked, she found a large flatish stone and putting the squirrel meat on it put it in the fire. to cook. She sat criss cross and stared into the fire.
Adrian grimaced. "It's not fire yet. It's just heat. And gases. My body is developing what I need to be a proper fire-breathing dragon, but something inside...it's not mixing yet so I can't actually breathe fire. I can only breathe the contents of it." He coughed. "And doing so in human form is kind of bad for me...inhaling the gas I release can be dangerous."
"Oh...don' hur' yoursel'." Shiloh said worriedly. She used her knif eto flip the meat on the stone and make sur eit got cooked through before pulling it out, the squirrels had been small so it didn't take that long to cook,
"He'e, be ca'eful." Shiloh said, putting the meat on a cold stone near Adrian. She didn't take for herself, just cooking it had made her more nausceous.(sp?
Adrian frowned worriedly. "Aren't you going to eat? You need your strength. If Nathan finds out you haven't eaten won't he be upset?" He swallowed. "If you're preg.nant, shouldn't you eat for the baby's sake?"