Audrey felt so confused and lost. She didn't know how she could love someone so... angry. She didn't understand why he and her father were fighting and all she wanted was to remember everything.
The doctor quickly followed Nathan out of the room when seeing him leaving. "Mr. Cross she's in a delicate state right now. She can't remember you. Do you really think it's wise to make first impressions like this? Yes I realize Mr. Shaw and you don't get along but we all need to focus on the matter at hand and that's Audrey."
Nathan sighed. "Look, I'm sorry. But I can't...act. I am who I am and that's the end of it. I can't act and I don't lie often. I love her...but it's painful enough I have to adjust to a new face. On top of that, she's practically a completely different person right now. It's certain she's not the woman I asked to marry me. That woman...appears to be dead."
The doctor stopped them in the hallway outside the room. "Listen to me Nathan..." it was the first time he had adressed Nathan as Mr. Cross. "I know this has to be difficult, I know. But think of her. That woman you love is still somewhere inside. Okay?"
"And will she ever come out?" Nathan asked, challengingly. "Will I ever have her back? Will she ever be the same woman? Will she ever remember me like she's subbosed to?" He shook his head. "I just...need a bit of time to myself to deal with this."
"She could. I'll warn you that the possibilities are slim..." he told Nathan trying to be as gentle and compassionate as he could. "I'll.. I'll leave you alone now. Audrey won't go anywhere until you decide." he said and left Nathan to do his thinking by himself.
Nathan spent some time alone, pacing and muttering to himself under his breath. It was a while before he returned to Audrey's room, wanting to check on her, and also to see if her parents were still home.
*Still there, not still home.
Audrey was sitting on her hospital bed looking down at the hands in her lap. She may not have remembered Nathan but she remembered how she looked before the accident. Her parents were gone but hadn't left the hospital. When she looked up and saw Nathan she didn't say anything, her face expressionless.
Nathan came and sat by her bed. "Do you want to remember?" He asked softly. "Or would it be better to just forget and start over? I mean...would you still marry a man you don't even remember proposing to you?"
"I don't know." she said in her newly high pitched voice. It wasn't annoying, just more feminine. "My doctor thinks it would be better if I tried to go back to my life now with you." Audrey watched Nathan with her no longer almond shaped eyes but instead circular and a little too big for her face. "I suppose we could give it a shot."
Nathan sighed deeply. "This is all my fault..." He muttered. It hurt so much. It was so hard to force himself to accept that this was Audrey. That this was the girl of his dreams. "Should have taken the other way like you said..."
Even though Audrey didn't know who Nathan was some of the emotions she had felt for him before were still there. Like seeing him looking so down gave her a strange ache where her heart was. "Maybe I can... remember. Eventually. I don't know." she sighed not knowing why she didn't like seeing this Nathan guy upset. Audrey, herself was a bit upset because this wasn't her either. It was going to take some getting used to; this body.
Nathan grimaced. "I guess we'll see. And if you don't remember...well the best of luck to you in your new life. But I don't think I could completely repeat everything I did to win you over the first time. That was a lot of hard work, you know. I spent a lot of money just trying to get up to the proposal."
Audrey's old temper flamed when she heard how Nathan spoke. "Money? Money is all you're worried about?" the disgust was written all over Audrey's face as she stood up, a little wobbly from being in a new body. She shook her head, a hint of pain in her new eyes before she walked out of the hospital room. Audrey tried to be fast but she could only go so fast until she got used to being in the new body.
"Audrey wait!" Nathan went after her, catching her hand. "Audrey, I don't care about the money. I'd spend everything I have on you. I wasn't saying that was what was stopping me exactly...I mean...I'm just saying I seriously can't repeat everything exactly. I lost my job and had to get a new one that pays less and I'm just saying. I don't care about that. I care about getting back the woman I love."
Audrey could still feel the anger deep inside her. When Nathan touched her though it was as if on some different level she recognized it. It was somewhat... familiar. She looked up at Nathan who towered over her now. "Seems like money is all you care about." she mumbled not caring if the nurses and doctors were watching them.
I'd give it all up for you Audrey." Nathan said, being sincere. "I love you Audrey. Your love is what I care about. Nothing else matters if I can't have your love."
It was all so hard to hear because this was just a stranger to her but somehow she believed him. And it made her chest ache because she couldn't show him the same love. Before she could say anything the doctor and her parents came down the hall. "Audrey are you alright?" the doctor asked taking her arm expecting her to be swaying or falling. "He's still here? What's he done now?" Winsten asked glaring at Nathan.
Nathan sighed, shaking his head. "Audrey, you should probably get back to bed and rest. You're not used to this body. I don't think you should be pushing it or you might hurt yourself."
Audrey wasn't sure how to respond to a stranger when he told her what to do. Her first reaction was to say something snippy but she bit her tongue long enough for her doctor to agree with Nathan and lead her back to the hospital bed. Audrey's mother chastised her husband in hushed hisses while they followed.