The silence made Audrey's heart ache but she managed a small smile as she took the ingredients. She began to measure the stuff out, making homemade cookies, before putting it together in a bowl and mixing it very well.
When she finished, Nathan scooped the cookie dough out and onto the pan, making two pans of cookies. He slid them into the oven and set the timer, before he started to clean up the mess, never speaking. He thought Audrey wanted silence.
While Nathan spooned the dough onto the sheets Audrey took little bits every now and again when he wasn't looking. By the time he had put the cookies in the oven Audrey was in a much better mood with a smile on her face. He hadn't caught her and if he noticed he didn't give it away which caused her to giggle to herself as she sat up on the counter with her legs dangling.
Nathan knew she'd steal the dough. He kept a straight face, acting like he didn't have a clue. He put the cookies in the oven and set the timer, turning to her. "What am I going to do with you, you little cookie stealer?" He teased.
Audrey giggled even more when Nathan let on that he was aware of her actions. "I used to take the dough when I'd make cookies with my mom." she told him information that was already said when they were getting to know each other. It was kind of sad that she couldn't seem to remember that she'd already told him everything about her. For Audrey she was still getting to know the man she already felt love for.
Nathan chuckled. "Yeah...you also steal it when you make cookies with me." He looked at her and sighed. "Audry, it's kind of hard...having to repeat conversations we've already had...do you want me to just pretend it's new or...should I just tell you that we've already had the conversation? I'm afraid if I tell you, you'll feel like you have nothing to talk about."
"Oh..." Audrey bit her bottom lip and looked down at her lap. Her feet slowly stopped their dangling motions and she seemed a bit sad. "I'm sorry... More I don't remember...." her tone had gone from bubbly to one of melancholy. "I don't know... It's up to you... I'm sorry..." she apologized again.
Nathan shook his head. "I need to know what will make you happy." He said softly. "That's all I want. To make you happy. If repeating things and letting you get to know me again like you did before is what you want, then I'll do it. I just need to know."
Audrey got tears in her eyes which she hated. She used to get so angry when things happened but as of late she just got really sad and wanted to cry. It was as if she was on her per.iod indefinitely. "The thing is I don't know things about you. I can't remember our conversations. Gosh I'm so sorry..." Audrey blubbered into her hands so he wouldn't see her ears.
Nathan sighed and hugged her gently, kissing her head. "Audrey honey, it's okay...I'll let you learn again. It's not your fault." No, it was all his fault. And this was his punishment for being so careless. His heart ached so badly. He wanted his fiance back. He just wanted her back...
Audrey could honestly feel the sadness that Nathan felt. "I'm sorry I'm not the same... I wish I could remember..." Audrey hated herself for losing her memory. She knew she loved the man that hugged her but she couldn't remember any of their life together for the most part. She held onto him and buried her face in Nathan's shoulder as the smell of cookies filled the kitchen air.
After a moment, sighing, Nathan pulled away and got ready to pull the cookies out of the oven. "Remember not to burn yourself this time." He mumbled as he set them on the counter. "They'll need to cool. What do you want to do in the meantime?"
When Nathan pulled away Audrey ached inside. She didn't like being so emotional but she couldn't help it. "I don't know..." she whispered, letting her face be covered by her hands. She just wanted to remember... Or at least to make Nathan happy.
Nathan sighed, hugging her again. He kissed the top of her head. "Audrey, my love. I'm glad to still have you. I'm glad you're still alive. Because I almost lost you completely. I'll be thankful for what I have, as long as we can still be happy together."
"I'm trying." she promised him in a sad tone. "I really am. I want to make you happy, Nathan." Audrey confessed. She was coming out of her shell little by little. It would never be exactly the same as before though.
Nathan shook his head and kissed her tenderly on the lips. "I love you so much..." He mumbled. "I feel happy when you're happy. And I'm sorry if I upset you. I can't help it sometimes." He sighed again.
Audrey wrapped her slender arms around Nathan's neck and returned the tender kiss. "Can we just have milk and cookies and watch some tv?" she wondered if he liked the same sort of shows that she did, not knowing that they had set seasons where they would watch the new episode each and every week.
Nathan nodded. "Of course love." He murmured, kissing her again before turning away. He got out a plate and two glasses, setting the cookies on the plate and pouring some milk into each glass. He handed her a glass. "Come on."
Audrey was getting used to the random kissing and she quite enjoyed it with Nathan. Once the milk was poured she hopped off the counter and took her glass from Nathan. "Thank you." she said. When she saw the amount of cookies on the plate though she added a few more unshamefully. "There. Now we can go."
Nathan chuckled, grabbing what few cookies that remained and putting them on the plate. "There." He led her into the den and sat on the couch grabbing the remote. He waited for her to get comfortable before turning on the TV and flipping to their usual channel.