Ryker's oddly idigo coloured eyes peered up at Ben through thick lashes. "You really didn't know..." he whispered mostly to himself. 'I guess he really didn't pay any attention in school...' Ryker thought while he watched Ben. "But... But you're straight... Right?" Ryker could remember all the rumours he had heard about Ben and different college girls way back when. But then again they were just rumours... Suddenly Ryker was feeling guilty for having listened to gossip.
Ben looked into Ryker's indigo eyes with his emerald eyes. "No, not quite," he bit the inside of his cheek and put the hand that wasn't holding Ryker's in his pocket. "I like a little bit of both."
"Oh..." Ryker's face flamed which made him feel odd. He was never one to blush or get nervous around others. But then again he'd never really been in a situation where both males reciprocated feelings. "That makes sense." Ryker finally said refusing to look away from Ben. He was trying his hardest to get his usual look of confidense back even with someone as intimidating as Ben right in front of him.
Ben nodded slowly before smirking slightly at Ryker's blush. He seemed to be going red a lot lately, which was fine by Ben, it was cute. "Yeah, girls just happened to like me more often than guys ever did. Everyone just assumed I was straight.
"I never liked girls." Ryker told him in all honesty. "Even when we were in elementary school. I chased boys instead of girls." he laughed quietly remembering those years. "And you know..." Ryker's mouth sudden curved up into a flirtatious smile. "I've always had a thing for green eyes." he said moving closer to Ben. "Oh and dark brown hair." Ryker bit his lower lip reaching out to touch Ben's chest. "Let's not forget about tallness. I've always had a thing for tall guys." Ryker's tone was flirtatious and inviting as was his expression. But his eyes looked nervous and the brighter blush that came to his cheeks gave him away even more.
Ben smirked playfully and reached out, grabbing hold, gently, of Ryker's waist and pulling him close. "Well, I like your eyes too, never seen anything like indigo before," he reached up, running a hand through Ryker's hair, "And I love your hair, and your height is perfect." he paused for a moment. "And you know what? I've always preferred guys."
Ryker blushed feircely when he felt Ben pull him closer. The se.xual tension seemed to be building and Ryker had no idea where to go with it. "You're sweet. Thank you." he said quietly not taking his eyes away from Ben's eyes. "As I stated before I've never liked girls." he giggled confirming that he preferred guys as well.
Ben smirked, "Yeah, and that's good," he leaned in slightly, they're noses brushing slightly. "Does that mean you wouldn't mind if I did this?" he brought his lips to Ryker's gently, making sure not to be forceful witht the younger male.
When Ryker felt Ben getting closer his breath caught in is throat. He didn't pull away even though he was beyond nervous now. Once their lips touched though the nerousness seemed to melt away. To answer Ben's question Ryker wrapped his arms around Ben's waist pulling the male closer to him as they continued to kiss.
Ben held back a smile to continue to kiss Ryker gently, not wanting to pull away. He hadn't been close to anyone in the longest time, ever since everyone had left, he hadn't even held a conversation with anyone. But this just felt perfect, what they were doing, and for some reason, he didn't want to stop.
This was all against Ryker's better judgement. He didn't let people in; not that many had begged to be a part of his life. He needed to pull back but Ben's lips were so nice and sweet against his own it was hard. Ryker found himself moving even closer so their bodies were right against each other. His feminine hands rubbed Ben's lower back slowly.
Ben ran one hand up so it slipped into Ryker's hair, gently though, trying not to be rough with him in any way. He moved so one of his legs was between Ryker's, their body's formed perfectly against eachother, like pieces of a puzzle.
Ryker gasped when he felt Ben's thigh against his gro,in. Instead of making a big deal about it Ryker merely tucked his own thigh between Ben's legs so they fit together. His hands kept rubbing Ben's lower back as his mouth opened with only the slightest of hesitation. Ryker had no idea what had come over him. Ben was just so captivating and Ryker couldn't seem to stop.
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Ben let one hand fall to Ryker's waist,pressing his body against the smaller's boy's, and running his tongue across Ryker's lower lip.
At the feel of Ben's tongue Ryker moved his to meet it tentatively. His hands gripped Ben's shirt as the the kiss grew deeper. Ryker's dark hair fell into his closed eyes but he was too focused on Ben to really realize it.
Ben closed his eyes, letting his tongue drag across Ryker's slowly. He gripped at the hem of Ryker's shirt, just gently, with the one hand what wasn't buried in Ryker's hair. He pressed more firmly against Ryker, turning slightly, to push Ryker against the counter.
Everything was happening so quickly. Ryker knew he wanted Ben but he also knew he didn't love him... And he had always wanted his first time to be with the one he loved. So many thoughts were swirling around in Ryker's head as he wiggled up onto Ben's counter. His legs went around the taller boy's waist and his arms went around his neck. All the while Ryker didn't let their lips part but instead deepened their kiss. Ryker could feel that Ben was trying to be gentle but he wanted Ben to be somewhat more aggressive.
Ben let his fingers slide under Ryker's shirt slightly, brushing his stomach. He leaned into Ryker, letting him deepen the kiss before nipping slightly at his lower lip. Maybe Ryker wanted more? Ben didn't know where any of this was going, but he also didn't care at all. All he knew was that he wanted this, whatever it was.
Ryker groaned in the back of his throat feeling his bottom lip held and then released by Ben's teeth. His breathing was a little heavy from how long their lips had been glued together. Hesitantly Ryker pulled back so his legs stayed around Ben's waist and his hands rested on Ben's shoulders. Ryker felt Ben's hand on his stomach and tensed. 'Scars... So many scars. Can't do it... He'll think I'm hideous.' Ryker's mind was racing with millions of thoughts until he finally grabbed Ben's wrist very gently. "I... I can't do this." he whispered not moving them from where they were at all.