"What? Mate?" Rose sat up suddenly, her hazel-green eyes wide and cheeks rapidly filling up with a deep crimson."Seong I'm no his mate." Rose insisted, now crossing her legs and stuffing her hands in her lap."But yeah, Kai was pretty upset." She admitted, frowning."I really hope they don't hurt him too bad."
"I'm blushing? Like Orlando what?" Jupiter asked, standing up and touching his cheeks. Cràp, they were burning up still. Oh god oh god...
"I'm just hot in here, that's all." Jupiter grumbled lamely, forcing himself to shrug."C'mon, let's just go back to our room, okay? And no more stupid questions."
"You are not?" Seong actually looked a little surprised at this, but her expression was back to normal just as quickly as it came. "Ah, but you want to be," she murmured, turning back to her book. "And he wants you to be. So, why not?" Though her last sentence made her raise a brow, just slightly. "You do realise they are testing pain tolerance? Of course they will hurt him badly." Wasn't that obvious?
"Yes, you're blushing," Shasta said, his voice just as mischievous as the smile on his face. Wait - he didn't know who Orlando Bloom was? "And he's only the hottest guy in the entire world! Believe me, once you see him, you'll never forget who he is."
Were they leaving already? He sighed and stood, emptying his tray and setting it in it's designated place and waiting for Jupiter to do the same before heading back. "It's so not hot in here. They keep it at seventy-five all the time, you know."
"It's complicated, Seong." Rose sighed, looking crestfallen at her last statement. She pulled her legs closer to to her chest, hugging them and then resting her chin on them. Most would be annoyed by Seong's bluntness, but Rose had grown long used to it by now."And I know. I know they're going to hurt him. I just can't help but to hope." She explained miserably, biting her lower lip."I hate this place."
"No, I grew up here, remember?" Jupiter explained as they began to walk to their room."I don't know anything about the 'real world'. Well, except what Kiba and you have told me, but that doesn't count." He didn't sound depressed or glad about it, but instead, uninterested.
"Just drop it. I blush a lot because I'm weird." He added, done with the conversation."So just shut up about it, okay?" Jupiter snapped, ungraciously. Okay, he was being a jerk, but he couldn't help himself. It was just too much shoving everything down all the time.
"Complicated? As if." They liked each other! How was that complicated? This wasn't like Romeo and Juliet! Seong glanced over at Rose just long enough to see her grief before sighing and closing her book. "They will hurt him. But they will stop when he cannot take anymore." She suddenly realised how awful she was at trying to comfort people. "Nothing more than he can handle. He will be alive. He will heal. And then he will be as good as new."
"Believe me, the real world is way better than this..." Anything was probably better than this... Shasta's gaze became rather far away as he remembered ice cream and TV and fun. Fun. How long had it been since anyone here had had fun?
"Fine, fine. Jeez. Someone's testy this morning. But yeah, you are pretty weird." He grinned, opening the door and flopping onto his bed. Now if only he had someone to cuddle with...
"Thanks, Seong." Rose smiled weakly, before he stard at a peice of the wall for a moment. Then, very hesitantly, she approached the subject."Have you....have you ever liked anyone Seong?"
"Testy. Hmph. I'll show you testy." Jupiter grumbled, falling onto his bed and leaning his back against the wall, his arms crossed as he stared at Shasta laying on his bed. His shirt was really too big on the boy, but his jeans fit perfectly on his legs and his hair was ruffled on his head in that adorable way....Jupiter blinked himself out of checkig Shasta out, straightening.
"You're kidding me. You're going to sleep?"
Seong blinked, glancing back at her book that was closed now and sitting neatly on the equally neat bed. "Well, I like you," she murmured. "But I know that is not what you mean. As for love, no. I am not aware of what love feels like or is, besides an emotion or feeling that has the potential for getting people into trouble. I assume that is the kind of 'like' you feel for Kai?"
"Dude, you show us testy everyday." Shasta grinned and stretched out, placing his hands behind his head. It was quiet for a moment, and only when Shasta turned to look at Jupiter did he realise why, and that realisation made him blush mercilessly.
"Um..." Why? Why did he have to be so flustered now? He barely even heard Jupiter's last question. "What's with the staring, man?" he asked, hating how small his voice sounded. "Do I look weird or something?"
"What? Seong, you can't be serious." Rose was suddenly up and standing by her bed, her gaze deeply troubled."How do you not know what love is?" The epiphany made Rose feel very sad, and she hardly even blushed at her last assumption."And what? No, I don't know. I mean, I care for Kai but that doesn't mean I love him..."Her voice faltered off with an unsure sigh. Why did Seong have to make her think so much?
"What?" Jupiter felt his face fill with warmth, and he cursed himself mentally. "No, no you don't look weird." He finally replied back, shifting uncomfortablely on his bed. The room abruptly seemed small, and Jupiter was suddenly staring down at his hands...
"Shasta,"He began, his voice very quiet, and very vulnerable sounding. Jupiter glanced up at him, his brown eyes briefly meeting his own."How do you know...know that you're gáy, exactly?"
Seong looked confused. Can't be serious? But she was... "In case you have not noticed, Rose, I am not exactly..." What was the word? "Of normal human likeness, in the question of emotion. I do not feel emotion, Rose. So of course I do not feel love. Is this a problem?" Who was she kidding - Of course this was a problem! She shook her head. "And even if you do not love him, you are very close. You like him very much."
"Okay, good." Shasta tossed him a grin before closing his eyes. Man, Jupiter's shirt was just so... soft! Had it been worn a lot? Hmm...
Suddenly his eyes flew open as he stared at Jupiter in surprise. When had he ever sounded so... small? "H-how do... oh..." It all sounded so unlike Jupiter... Shasta swallowed at got up, sitting on the edge of Jupiter's bed next to him. "Well, I'm pretty sure if a guy kissed you you'd find out pretty quick, don't you think?" He sighed softly. "I know I'm g.ay because I'm attracted to guys, not girls. Sure, girls are pretty, but I'd never date one. I'd rather kiss a guy. Screw a guy. Marry a guy. I wouldn't do any of that with a girl."
"No, not a problem..."Rose murmured, leaning on her hip as she stared at the girl."But I think anyone can feel love, Seong. You just have to find the right person, that's all." Rose nodded with conviction, before she sighed and sat down back on her bed."Yes, I like Kai very much. It's just that...well, they use your relationships here against you. Like with his." Rose pointed to her left black and blue eye.
"O-oh." Jupiter nodded vigorously, swallowing hard as he suddenly stood up as soon as Shasta sat down on his bed. His heart beat was going a million miles and hour, and he was feeling very weird, being this close to Shasta."Uh, thanks. Now I have to go to the bathroom. Yeah." Jupiter muttered, before ducking into the restroom just to control himself.
But from what? Jupiter stared at himself critically in the mirror; there was nothing special about him. Brown hair, brown eyes. Even a crooked grin, he thought. What could Shasta possibly see in him? Especially if he thought he was straight? Jupiter frowned slightly, before he flushed the toilet and ran the water. He glanced at his reflection one more time, then walked out in the room.
"So,"Jupiter began, forcing a smile over towards Shasta."When do you think Kai will be done? Do you think I'll be next?" Everything was so random here; it made you even more paranoid than you already were.
"Right person. Yes. Because there is a person out there who wants to love a robot." Seong frowned just the slightest bit, and it barely even showed. "And just because people here use love for bad things, it does not mean you do not love Kai. It means you want to hide that love, so he will not get hurt because of it."
Shasta raised a brow as Jupiter returned, clearly not amused. "If you need privacy, you don't have to fake going to the bathroom. I'm not an idiot, you know, no matter what Kai says."
And now, since both Kai and that stupid experiment were both mentioned, Shasta couldn't help but tune his brain to hear Kai's thoughts. It was automatic, and as soon as he did it, Shasta wished he hadn't. Because now he could see everything, hear everything, and it was horrible.
"I... I don't know..." His words were forced out in a choked whisper as he hid his face in his hands, just short of sobbing his eyes out. "But I know it's going to be h.ell."
"You're not a robot, Seong." Were the words automatically out of Rose's mouth. She paused, staring at her with sad eyes. She had become to care for the girl over the past weeks they had roomed together, and to hear her speak so harshly about herself made Rose feel very...heartbroken. Just like she felt about her feelings about Kai."I need to get better at hiding my feelings for him, then." Rose replied, straightening."I will not let them use my feelings against me."
"I never said you were an idiot." Jupiter protested, before he watched as Shasta closed his eyes to listen in on Kai's thoughts. The effect was immediate on him; he hunched over and looked almost to the point of tears. Jupiter couldn't help but to instantly go over to him, his expression that of concern.
"Hey, Shast." He said softly, his touch even gentle as he set his hand on his back. Jupiter hardly ever touched Shasta so freely, but it was hard not to comfort the boy. Too hard."We're all going to get through it, like we always do, okay?"
"But I could be." Seong sighed and finally looked up at the girl in front of her with a faint smile that hinted at sadness. "I could be, and you know it. As for you and Kai... Do you think he would be happier loving you and hurting for it, or not knowing if you love him and still being hurt?"
"It's not me I'm worried about!" Shasta cried, letting his tears flow freely now, unable to realise how weird it was that Jupiter was comforting him - touching him, even - as he leaned into his chest, trying to yank his thoughts away from his brother's.
"I know we'll get through it," he whispered shakily. "But it's still going to hurt like h.ell, just like everything else..." Couldn't they ever get a break? He heard Kai cry out in pain in his head, only causing him to gasp and clutch Jupiter's hand in a death-grip.
"Yeah, but that would be okay. You know, if you were a robot." Rose reassured, before she dug her chin further into her knees and hugged herself even closer."I don't know." She admitted with a defeated sigh."This is why it's good to talk to you, Seong. You think with your head while I think with my heart."
Jupiter was never good at emotions. Not when he could barely handle his own. Rose was the one good with emotions. But this? A sobbing Shasta in his arms? Jupiter was beginning to slowly panic--he hated feeling this helpless and was feeling his heartbeat take off wildly--when he did something absolutely crazy.
He kissed Shasta.
Sure, it was a little clumsily, and probably a little slobbery, considering Jupiter had never missed anyone before. But it was a kiss. Meant for comfort, for love. It tasted of salt and shy passion stored away before Jupiter pulled away with a horrified expression.
(lol sorry it's moving so quick I couldn't help myself xD)
"The heart does not think," Seong corrected with a small, unemotional giggle. "The heart feels. That is the difference. And sometimes, it is better in the long run to go by how your heart feels than what your brain thinks. That is why I envy you so much, Rose. You do not use your brain as much."
Shasta's brain shut off completely. Which was probably a good thing - all he could think about was his brother's suffering anyway. But now that his brain quit working, everything was just fine. Except for the way his heart skippeda few beats, and all the icy butterflies in his stomach began fluttering at once.
But it stopped all too soon, and he was left with a dazed expression, his head tilted to the side as he stared at Jupiter in utter confusion. And the only words he could find were, "Holy s.hit, you're g.ay."
[Lol That's totally fine xD I was getting impatient myself ]
"Oh my god, oh my god, no. No." Jupiter said to himself, utterly horrified as he backed away, the backs of his knees hitting his bed as he sat down."I just kissed you. Oh no." He moaned, falling back on his bed and covering his eyes with his hands.
"I couldn't help it Shasta. You were crying and sad and getting all emotional and shít and I just had to." He tried to reason with himself, sitting up abruptly and staring at Shasta with a mingled expression of relief and disgust. Relief that he finally kissed the guy, disgust at himself for doing it."Oh man, Shasta you can't tell anyone! Not even Kai with your weird one talk shít!"
Shasta blinked, beyond confused by this time. "No, you're not g.ay? Or no, you totally hated that kiss?" He wasn't sure which answer would be worse. If it was the first, that meant he'd just kissed a straight guy, which was totally wrong in every single way. If it was the second... Wow. That would just suck.
"Whoa whoa whoa. You're saying that was my fault?" Jeez... He finally stood, glaring down at Jupiter and thankful that he was taller just so he could look more intimidating. "I was crying, so it's my fault you kissed me. I see. I'm sure Kai would very much enjoy beating you to death for that."
"What? Wait, no not that I am gáy, well I think I am and I didn't think the kiss was bad--" Jupiter tried to explain himself, abruptly stopping as Shasta stood up, looking taller than ever. Now he was getting all defensive....
"Fine. Have Kai beat me up for kissing you." Jupiter snapped, his face flushing with both humiliation and anger."If you didn't like the kiss that's all you needed to say." He added under his breath.
"Shut up! Just shut up!" Why did Jupiter just kep saying a bunch of stuff that didn't make sense? Was he g.ay or not? Shasta gritted his teeth; this boy was just so freaking confusing!
But the last part Shasta definitely understood. "I never f.ucking said I didn't like it, you moron!" Now he felt so... ugh. "I liked it! But d.amn, if you're straight, it doesn't really matter if I liked it, doesn't it? Why do you have to be so confusing and... and... straight?"
It was as if Jupiter's frustration sizzled down to nothing. After Shasta said he actually liked the kiss, Jupiter suddenly felt very...light. On top of the world, or something. He looked like he was a dazed dear, blinking up at Shasta with a dubious expression.
"You...you liked my kiss?" He repeated, in awe at the sentence as he smiled gently. Who knew something like that would make Jupiter feel so wonderful."Really, Shasta? You aren't just saying that?" A deep crimson then colored his cheeks as he managed to look sheepish."Well, uh, I dunno. I think I'm gày. I mean, I sure liked the kiss..."Didn't Shasta realize how difficult this was for him? To explain, let alone admit his feelings? Jupiter gulped painfully.
Shasta shook his head, the same pained and bitter expression in place as he turned toward the bathroom. "Don't ever kiss me again unless you can tell me for sure you actually love me, you little s.lut." With that, he slammed the bathroom door shut and locked it, going to sit on the floor against the wall.
Okay. So that wasn't handled well. He folded his hands in his lap and took a deep breath, frowning in... confusion? Well, he was confused... First off - where on earth did he get off calling Jupiter a s.lut? It wasn't as if he himself was the purest boy in the lab, that was for sure. And why was he so mad? Well, that one was easy - that kiss back there meant absolutely nothing.