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It’s my Senior year of high school and, at this very moment, I’m supposed to be doing Sociology homework. I don’t know why I stopped, but I do know that I had this crazy thought; “It’s my last year of high school”. I don’t know what the natural reaction to this statement should be but, I guess mine went all crazy philosophical.
I’m an over-thinker.
I’m an avid worrier.
And suddenly the statement, “I’ve done absolutely nothing with my life”, popped up.
 
I’m not sure how other people live their current high school careers but mine has sucked... I think. I can’t say that I’ve truly let anyone know me. Purely out of fear, I suppose. That’s another thing about me; I’m quite vain. I care way too much about what other think of me and it’s gotten me to the point where I’m typing this small…whatever you call it, onto Teen Ink.
 
I can’t say I’ve had a mass amount of boyfriends. My love life is currently inexistent.
As are my;
-S e x stories
-Epic P C P and a c i d trips
-Ma riju ana use
-“Passed out on your couch and puked on your dog” memory
-Valedictorian position
-Voted “Most fashionable” trophy
-4.0 GPA average
And; so-on and so-forth.
 
I’m boring.
I read for fun. I drink tea and listen to indie rock bands. I watch documentaries. I wear chunky sweaters because my body temperature likes to keep me freezing for some stupid reason. And, I adore cats.
I think I’m more relatable to 94.5 year old women than my current age of 17.
I can’t say I have that super close, tight knit group of friends that do tight knit, super close friends’ type of s h i t stuff. I have maybe one of those. Considering she lives about a million states away; I guess that considers me a loner. Eh?
Yeah…
I guess what I’m trying to say is; It really sucks when you finally realize the “Best four years of your life”, aren’t really the best four years of your life. They’re the “The four years of your life you spent on the computer listening to music, making stupid decisions, caring way too much about what others think of you, when it’s gotten you absolutely no where”.
Yeah. That sums up my high school career.
I don’t mean to sound depressing but, it all actuality; I can’t say it was all bad.
I;
-Fell in love
-Got my first job
-Realized tea is absolutely remarkable when it’s raining
-Discovered a new-found love for The Smiths
-Found out that I’m not the only girl who’s never seen “The Notebook”
-Know what it truly feels like to love someone
-To “live and let-go”
-Am not the only one with a sick sense of humor
And; wrote this essay thing that I feel no one will actually read.
It’s pretty great.