The blood, because you abused
The tears, because you abused
The screaming, becaue you abused
The memories, because you abused
I was happy, until you abused
I was cutless, until you abused
I was strong until the day it all fell apart
I had dreams of hope and I had a future.
I go to bed, I hear your voice
I go to bed, I hear your foot steps
I hide the pain, I hide the bruises
some cuts are fresh others are to old to tell a story.
I fear because im all alone
I fear because you tore my heart out and it hasn't been returned
If i could turn back the clock
If it was in my power I would of said ''NO''
I would of back down I wouldn't have never let you hurt me.
Now because of you I have scars in my heart.
Now because of you I have the fire of hell and fear burning in my eyes.
And that knife is yelling at me is crying my name,
And that gun has my name written all over it.
For once I want to live not to fear the unexpected.
But I can't it's much to late
Every minute of hate becomes regret.
I rather hurt myself to death then to do onto you.
The cuts, the fears, the memories
The nights of sleepless anger
And the love of bleeding pain.
I'M GOING THROUGH THIS NOW, I WANT TO GET OUT BUT FEAR HOLDS ME DOWN
Wow, this is so real and so vivid. It such a current issue in many, many homes everywhere. You captured it so well that it scares me. The repetition serves you well in emphasis and the parallel structures do that as well. The ending nearly made me cry. You begin with the facts, the horror, the suffering and then you transition into the fear and then the want to end it, the want to fight back. But by the end, I can see the revealed person beneath it all. The ultimate good, the humanity inside you that pushes you not to turn into what fights you. Turning back in a violent nature would just make you into the monster you wish to destroy. I am glad that you can still be a good person even in such a bad and tragic situation. This is a well-written poem that gives a bold voice to the many who suffer from this situation. I hope that a solution will come to those who suffer!!
Oh, by the way, could you maybe comment on my poem titled The Mother of War?
this is really powerful and personal. i love it although i wish you didnt have to go through it. i was in the same spot no to long ago, its very dificult to deal with even still. please look at some of my work
i understand i would've done the same you thing you did. At least i know im not alone.....Good poem though..
You really know how to push the emotions into the heart of the reader, I admire you for that. Its very real and easy to appeal to you not just as a girl with built up emotions but as a writer with intellect. Its a beautiful poem.
I agree with Turquoise_Writer.
wow! that's awesome!
thankyou so much for this poem. i feel like that alot, it feels good to know that there are others that go through and feel some of the same things i do. and i know together we can all make it through somehow.<3
Your welcome. And Thank You. :)
Wow Silent this is sad and i know how you feel. I used to live with my dad and he abused me.. Just hitting and mental stuff though. But the bruises, pain, and fear I totally can relate to that. I am over him now though and I hope you get better in the future too I believe in you and I know you can. You are a great writer please never stop writing. Your friend-